The Babysitter- A Mike Dirnt Fan Fic

Misery

Finally he was in good enough condition to go home, and I was with him every minute, watching him as he walked, trying not to wince in front of me. He's still in pain, just his ribs.

I help him into my car, and drive him to his house, helping him out and onto the couch inside.

"It says here on the ting they gave you, that you need to take a shower as soon as possible, but try not to get it in your stitches, and be careful of your ribs" He rolls his eyes, and chuckles, wincing immediately.

"Be careful of them? No, I was gonna suggest doing sit-ups!" He's being sarcastic, and I help him up.

I take him to the bathroom, and help him to get his shirt over his head, a slow and painful process for both of us. Of course my pain isn't literal, but it hurts to see the bruises covering him.

"This is hell" He groans, able to unbutton his pants by himself.

I nod, agreeing, and he looks in the bag that the doctor gave him.

"There's gotta be some kind of pain pills in here, right?" He looks around a minute, smiling.

"Right" He answers the question himself, and takes out a bottle, taking two with water from the sink.

"Alright, I should be pain free in about twenty minutes" He reads off of the bottle, and tosses it at me, making me catch it and put it back in the bag.

"I think you can take it from here then, right?" He shrugs, and smiles at me.

"Are you offering?" He slips his shoes off, and I shake my head no.

"Sorry, you caught me at a bad time, so no. I won't be joining you today" He frowns, and I kiss his cheek, leaving him to get in the shower by himself.

Stupid periods, giving me fucking cramps. I should just get my "reproductive organs" taken out, I mean you can have that kind of surgical procedure done. It's a care package really, everything I want. No more periods, no worrying about ever getting pregnant because you won't be able to have kids, it's the perfect deal.

I wonder if Mike felt the same way? No kids I mean...I wonder if he ever wants kids someday? No, I shouldn't even ask, because I have the most unluckiest personality ever, if I ask he'll get the wrong idea and be like "yeah, lets hop in bed right now."

I mean I'm not saying that sleeping with him would be a punishment, but I'm just...scared. I can't have sex yet, I just can't, because there's bound to be a time when I do, that everyone will end up knowing about it, and that will not happen.

Why am I having a conversation with myself?

How pathetic, one because I'm still carrying on a conversation with myself, and two because I'm scared to have sex. I mean I might as well be renamed Iris The Virgin. I'm gonna be the one girl who dies a virgin because she's scared. I don't wanna be tagged as that though...I have to have sex. I'll just tell him that we should and it'll all work out. Yeah.

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He sits down on the couch easily, obviously numb from the pills, and puts his arm around my shoulders. I just need to blurt it out. Okay, on the count of three.

One....Three!

"We should have sex" I wanna hide and close my eyes, but I won't, I have to see what he says.

He makes a face, and eyes me up and down.

"Um...what did you just say?" He looks confused.

I sigh, and repeat myself.

He nods.

"Yeah, that's what I thought you said. Did you take some of my pills? Are you high? I mean...you just came right out of nowhere and said something like that" He starts to laugh, and I feel stupid.

He stops laughing, and narrows his eyes.

"Oh, you're serious...Iris...I don't believe you" He shakes his head.

"You don't wanna have sex with me?" He laughs.

"Iris, I would love to have sex with you, I've dreamed about it...but you can't just say that. I know you, and I know you well enough to know that you don't mean it. We'll know when the time comes...just...not now...not yet, Iris.....Okay?" He's respecting me, he's respecting me when I won't even respect myself.

"I just don't wanna be the girl that dies a virgin, that's all. But you're right, I'm just...I'm scared to yet" He nods, and smiles, kissing my cheek.

"It's okay, take all the time you need, because in the end, I'll still be with you, no matter what. I'd still be with you if you vowed never to kiss me again" I laugh, and lean my head on his shoulder.

"I'd drive myself crazy trying not to" He laughs.

"We're already crazy, baby. Don't kid yourself" And this is why I love him.