Sorry To All Who Have Experienced This

He Loves Goodbyes

Just when you think things couldn't get any worse, they do.

The person who you never thought would leave says adieu

The person who has constantly watched over you throughout your life

And the person who would keep you away from all kinds of strife

The person who loves you and would do anything for you

And the person who helps you whenever you've bit off more than you can chew

The person who always makes you laugh when all you want to do is crawl into a ball and cry

The person who never rested unless you are completely satisfied

The person who always played with you when you were younger

And the person who never let you be uncomfortable, whether from sleep deprivation, thirst or hunger

The person who always seemed to have nothing but kindness to say

And the person who always no matter what asked you about your day

This could be none other than your older brother who loved you a lot

Or so you thought

During eighth grade your family found out he wasn't who he seemed to be

He wasn't the angelic, model child in reality

He was a partier and into all things with alcohol

He also was abusive with drugs, but he still was your brother after all

So, when your mother put him into a psychiatric hospital to help with his depression and abuse,

You knew you still loved him even after you knew he used

Time passed and he was released

And he began to seem more at peace

But then his personality started to change into something monstrous

Everything everyone did, he made sure to make a fuss

He began picking fights with you and his brother, who were twins

It's like he loved to fight because he always wanted one to begin

He no longer seemed like the same brother you played with when you were six and he was ten

Now he was an angry and terrifying man, who always finds a way to hurt you time and time again

You've seen this behavior before

No, you repress that thought deep into your mind

But what other reason could there be for a man who wants to start wars?

No, he's still your brother- strong and kind

As time goes by, it gets worse and worse

Then your parents figure out he was using again and sent him back to that same hospital to be nursed

He stays there for a few months while you're supposed to go to school with a smile on your face

Your mother says you can't talk to anyone about it because it might bring the family dishonor and disgrace

So, you do what you always do and repress your thoughts into the back of your head

And you repress everything that happened aforesaid

You still stay supportive of your brother though

And you make sure to tell him he's loved and from here, all he can do is grow

He did, too.

He got out of that place, graduated high school and got a good job to work

He applied to college and he began to be the brother you once knew; not the jerk

All seemed well for you as well. You were participating in an after school sport, with either a practice or game every night to keep your mind at ease

And you had two awesome brothers who never seriously fight with you, only tease

Apparently, though once again you were wrong

Your brother couldn't be strong

After practice one day, you come home very early in the night

You went to your room, sit down on your bed and turn on your phone's light

You're doing what you normally do; check your Instagram for any new posts from today

But what you found blew your mind away

There, on your brother's account, he posted something about leaving the state

And he was leaving for Los Angeles- his tone seemed as if he couldn't wait

You ask your mom what he's talking about and she doesn't know

She walks into his room to find a note a note no sister wants to be showed

It says your brother is leaving because he isn't ready to be clean

And in that moment, you wonder how you could ever stick up for someone so mean

A brother doesn't do that

He doesn't just leave

A brother doesn't just go at the drop of a hat

He doesn't just leave his sister deceived

You begin to wonder how anyone can do that sort of thing

Just leave a path of destruction behind you and not expect loved ones to feel some kind of sting

He blocks you from Instagram and any one of his social media accounts

Because when it comes to being the worst brother, he surmounts

He also doesn't text or call to say hi

Or check up on you to see if your okay or tells you not to cry

But after a few weeks he does- he asks for the passwords for Netflix, so he can watch for free

He doesn't realize the destruction he left behind- so full of pain and debris

I guess, all you can say to your brother is that you hope he has a great life

Because he chose this life and you tried to be there through all of his strife

But he doesn't even realize it does he?

All you know is that you can agree

That he doesn't know how to say hi

He only knows how to say goodbye