Sorry To All Who Have Experienced This

It's Okay to Cry

You slide down the door of your bathroom because it's the only door in your house that can be locked.

All the feelings and all of the sadness that you've pushed down suddenly comes unblocked.

You remember everything bad about your life, from things people have said to things people have done

And you realize that the tears you were fighting have won

They start to fall, leaving streaks of pain on your cheeks

And you don't want to make a sound, never mind dare to speak

You've done this before

Crying with your back to the bathroom door

As much as you want someone to be there

To tell you everything's going to be okay and block your despair

But you feel like silently crying because you don't want anyone to ask how your are

You don't want people to know you have feelings and emotional scars

You've expressed your feelings in the past

Only to be shut down and made fun of or screamed at really fast

You have your head bowed into your arms as your knees are pulled to your chest

And you silently cry like one of the best

You think about how people would look at you in this state

So vulnerable and almost like shark bait

Your mind continues to travel to the people who have let you down

It seems like the list of you've come up with could fill a town

You start to get angry and ask yourself why you have to put up with this

Why are you the one who has to have the life that's anything but bliss

You've heard people say that 'it gets better' and that 'happiness always comes'

But if happiness always comes, why are you given so much to overcome?

Why can't happiness just be there when you need it?

Why does happiness only come whenever it sees fit?

Why did you have so much terrible things in your life that made you want to cry?

When other people practically skip through life on a cloud of rainbows in the sky?

Then you realize something-the epiphany of all time

Those kinds of people think that breaking a nail is a crime

They don't know how to react

They don't know how to feel when something in life doesn't go their way and that's a fact

Because they always wine and about a guy not asking them out

Or when they lost the big game they fuss and pout

They are so oblivious to what life actually is

It's not all puppies and unicorns and bliss

The world is so much darker and stranger than you could ever believe

And it gives you so much to grieve

There are times where all you want to do is cry in a ball

While you shut out the world- people above all

But that's just it

The fact that the world didn't give you a life of bliss

And the fact that you aren't boring like those who break their nail and throw a fit

You are able to be distraught

You are able to cry

You are able to be mad

And in a lot of ways that's not bad

Because as aforementioned, the world is a dark and scary place

But the fact that you know how to feel in this dark and scary place is something to embrace