Look how they shine for you ~(Jc Caylen fanfic)~

Chapter 15

Hey guys, it took me too long I know, I apologise. But here it is, the last chapter. I hope you enjoy.

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Jc's POV ~

We rushed inside the hospital while the doctors were already working on her as they were quickly trying to get her to the emergency room. I didn't want to lose her out of my sight, but they kept pushing me away. Behind me was Michelle desperetely calling Hailey's parents. On a chair in the waiting room was the person seated who hit Hailey with their car. It turned out to be Shawn. He held his head in his hands and didn't even dare to look at one of us. I really wanted to hurt him for what he did, he deserved it. But that won't turn the time back, unfortunetely.

Time passed as we waited for an update. An update that failed to come. I was losing my calm, I needed to know if she's okay. I can't lose her, not after what I did. Worries came rushing trough my mind. I didn't even say a proper aplogy, I never got the chance to say goodbye, I never got to say that I.. "Would you just sit down, you're making me even more nervous than I already am." Michelle interrupted me. I looked at her, annoyed to say the least. But she was right. So I sat down next to her. "I'm sorry, what did her parents say ?" She sighed, "it was heartbreaking, at first they thought it was some cruel joke, but then they fell quiet. Oh that silence, it was the worst silence I've ever heard. And I couldn't help myself but to feel guilty." Her eyes became watery. "Please, don't. It's not your fault. It's not like you pushed her in front of the car or something." I said. "But Jc, it happened right in front of her eyes, we couldn't stop her." She responded. "If anything, I should be the one to blame. I started all this, I wish we could turn back time but we can't. All we can do now is hope for the better." She nodded, "I guess you're right." Suddendly Shawn spoke up, "we all know it's my fault, I wasn't paying attention on the road and because of me, an innocent girl who has done nothing wrong lays on a hospital bed." Michelle responded, "Shawn it's okay, you didn't do it on purpose. And for the record, it's Hailey we're talking about, she is strong and she fights, she is gonna be fine." That made me smile, because it's true. It gave me back the hope I thought I lost.

A little while later Hailey's parents finally arrived and we all waited for the doctor to come out. Finally after roughly one hour, the doc called us in and began speaking. "I have bad and good news. The bad news is that she broke a few ribs and one arm and something happened in her brain causing her to be

unconscious for at least a month.." "Jesus Christ" I mumbled under my breath, everyone was quiet. "What's the good news ?" I asked. The doc smiled weakily, "she's alive and as far as I can tell she's a real fighter making us real Lucky, so we can hope for the best." "Thank you doctor." Hailey's mom stated. "You can now stay with Hailey for a few minutes, but she needs all the rest she can get." And with a friendly nod he exited the room.

Everyone took a turn to talk to Hailey, in the hope she can hear what they're saying. As far as I know, her parents wanted her to know they love her very much and demand her to fight trough this. Michelle said that she will personally whoop her ass if she even dared to leave her alone, and ofcourse apologised for the fight. Shawn asked her for forgiveness and made clear it was never his intention to do this to her. Now it's my turn. I sat down by her bed and hold on to her hand. I gently carressed her face with my free hand. "Oh Hailey, look at you. I wish you would have just stayed with Michelle, didn't come running after me. But then again I wish for so many things at the moment. I wish I never picked you to be in my game, you turned out to be far more than  I expected. You changed me for the better and I changed you for the worst. I wish you could speak to me and tell me that everything will be okay. I want to be better for you. And I must say, pretending not to love you was the hardest thing I ever had to do honestely. At first I didn't understand it, understand myself. But you made me think and feel the things I didn't want to. I want to thank you for caring even though I hurt you so many times. At last I wish you knew how much you actually mean to me. You have my heart, you always will." I sighed, stood up and walked out the room.

Everyday for the past 4 weeks I've visited Hailey, telling her about my day, wishing her to get better, telling her the same thing over and over again. Although today I got to the hospital a bit later than usual. I said my hello's to the nurses and doctors and walked to Hailey's room. When I got there, I completely froze. Before me was an empty bed, I didn't understand what was happening. There was a nurse cleaning the room and stopped as she noticed me standing in the door opening. She spoke up, "can I help you sweetheart ?" I looked at her, "uh yeah, there was a girl here.. Where is she, where is Hailey ?" The nurse frowned, "haven't you heard ? She is gone, sweety she left us.." As soon as she said those words something inside me snapped, "no, no that isn't possible.. It can't be." I had to grab the doorframe to prevent myself from falling. "What's the matter I don't think you understand." I couldn't hear her anymore I felt like I was suffocating, I had to get out of here. I stormed the hallway in, I needed to get some air.

To be continued..