Look how they shine for you ~(Jc Caylen fanfic)~

Chapter 5

Today in school, I couldn't focus at all. My thoughts were all about Jc. You know, it's good to think, but when you overthink -what I do a lot- you go crazy. You can't sleep good, because the thoughts keep you awake. If there was a way I could just stop thinking for a minute, even for a second, that would be great.

I came to a conclusion that I may have feelings for Jc, though I wasn't sure. There had to be a way I can figure out if I had them or not and if it's not just lust. The worst part; I can't discuss this with Michelle, because somewhere I have the idea that she is not a big fan of Jc and me. And that counts for the rest of my friends too. I was all alone in this, and had to figure it all out by myself.

After the lesson was over, I walked with Michelle as usual. "Is there something wrong ?" She said looking at me with concern. I looked up, "no, why ?" I put on a fake smile. "It seemed like you were out of this world during class." "I just couldn't sleep because of all the thoughts, that been spooking trough my mind," I said "that's all." She nodded, "tell me, maybe I can help you." I swallowed hard, "I don't think you would like it very much.." "Okay, now you are just making me curious." She said with a slight chuckle. "I.. err.., think.. that I may have.. feelings." I said stuttering not knowing rather I would tell it or not.. "Go on.." She said. "For.. Jc." I confessed. She was quiet after I said that, probably processing it. "You know he is going to break your heart, right ?" She said in a serious tone and a blank expression on her face. "I know, and I'm not planning to fall for him." I said looking at the ground. "But you did." She stated still expressionless. "No, I said that I may have feelings for him. I'm not sure yet." I said in offence, she rolled her eyes. "Can you stop judging and help me how I can find out rather I like him or not ?" I said getting a bit frustrated. "I think it's better to not find out and just stay out of his way." She snapped. I tried to say something back, but nothing came out of my mouth. I had mixed feelings of anger, confusing, disagreement, pain and sadness. I looked at the floor, "you're right." "I'm sorry Hailey." She said with sympathy in her voice. "It's okay, really." I stated. "Are you sure ?" She asked, "yes, I'm sure." I lied, though I put on a slight smile. Just to comfort her.

I was walking out of school when Jc came walking beside me. Great, just great. "Hey beautiful," He said throwing his arm around my shoulders. "I'm not in the mood Jc." I coldly said while trying to get his arm off me. "What happend ?" He said with a chuckle. "Nothing." I stated. He looked at me confused and with a bit of concern, "no seriously, what happend. You can tell me babe." He said getting serious. I stopped walking and looked at him, "you want to know what happend ? You, you happend." I snapped. "What the hell did I do ?" He yelled offended. I stayed quiet. "Tell me !" He yelled once again. Him yelling, scared me. It was really intimidading, he could easily hit me and knock me out any second. I looked at the ground, "I don't know." He probably noticed I became scared and loosend up. "I'm sorry babe, please don't be afraid of me.." He begged in a soft tone. I didn't react, "babe look at me." He said cupping my cheeks so I looked at him. "Just leave me alone." I said holding back tears, walking away from him. He soon walked up to me again, "I'm not going to leave you alone." "Jc.." I said with a sigh. He grabbed me by my waist, and pulled me close, "what happend ? Just talk to me." I hesitated rather I would tell him that I may have feelings for him, or lie. If I told him, I would scare him away. But I don't want that, I want him to be around. But if he is around and I fall for him, it would hurt me. And if he is gone, it'll hurt me too. Michelle told me to stay away from him though. My thoughts went on and on about it. I was completely zoned out. "Hailey, are you okay ?" He said looking into my eyes. I noticed I had tears in my eyes now, "I don't know. It just feels so wrong." A slight smirk began growing upon his face, "I can make it feel right." He lifted me up and carried me to his car.

Once I knew where this was going I jumped out of his grip, "no Jc, I don't want this." I was now leaning with my back against the side of his car, with Jc standing a few inces away from me. He ignored my statement and started kissing me in my neck. I closed my eyes as a slight moan escaped from my mouth. I noticed that he never went further than neck kissing. I always stopped it because I thought it felt wrong, but it actually feels right. It feels right doing the wrong thing. It was now the moment to let him stop, but I let him continue. I was curious what would happen. He looked at me, it seemed like he could read my mind. I bit my lower lip, he smirked and brought his lips to my neck. Kissing it slowly so my eyes closed again. He pushed his body against mine, as he was sucking my neck. First it felt ticklish, making me giggle, but when he sucked harder, it began to hurt. I growled in pain, Jc just chuckled removing his lips from the spot, "sorry babe." I licked my lips, "it's okay, but don't do that again." He laughed, "can't promise anything." I realised I said that to him before. "You're so funny." I said with sarcasm. He winked and tried kissing me again, but I stopped him. "I think we should stop here." I looked at the sky and saw it was getting dark. "Fine," he gave me a kiss on the cheek and jumped in his car, "it was nice fooling around with you." I raised an eyebrow, "I'm just a girl you can fool around with ?" "A very beautiful one." He said with a wink and smirked. "Well, thanks a lot jackass." I huffed. "I'm just kidding babe, you know I am," I crossed my arms ",see you around beautiful." He chuckled, and with that he drove off.

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I was almost home when I received a text message. I opened it and saw it was from Jc;

From; Jc

Oh, forgot to tell you, I suggest you should have a look in the mirror. ;)

What did he meant ? By the time I finished the thought, I arrived at my dad's house. I walked straight to the bathroom, and looked in the mirror. I noticed a giant hickey in my neck, okay not a giant but it was noticable. After studying my hicky, I texted Jc;

To; Jc

Thanks for the giant hickey, it's really beautiful and I'm really happy with it. I'm so glad I can put make-up on it so people won't judge me for being a slut. Love you so much xoxoxoxo

I laughed at my sarcastic joke. I laugh at my own jokes that's how cool I am. A few seconds later I got a reply;

From; Jc

You're welcome and love you too babe, can't wait to see you tomorrow. ;)

I smiled at his text and walked to my room.

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