I lost hope long ago. I sit here my mind scattered wondering what's keeping me going. I think and think no one ever thinks I'd be the on to cry myself to sleep or be so confused and lost that I finally break down, no one thinks the world is cruel I wish I could leave but we all no there's only one way. So I keep moving it seems poi t less my mind ponders on the thought of another life. I don't believe in much anymore my beliefs were yanked from me I hope for anything better then now my life isn't bad by any means I'm just stranded nothing to do nowhere to go. My mind so hopeless every ones given up no one cares anymore I've been given up on. All my hopes and dreams seem lost. I lie here thinking of a better life one not composed of lies, lust, hatred, Anger, but of nothing just eternal darkness. Something's are just not what you hope my life is one. Things seem to go my way then I get dropped off the edge of a cliff the Liam of the fall is nothing I show no emotion anymore I put I'm my happy mask the mind off the hopeless is sad dark and somehow there is always going to still be love no matter how bad you hurt love is always there. It's the only thing I have I hope for I have to love someone even if I am not loved back. My mind is not hopeless yet but if hurt again I will not bare it I will lose all hope in everything. I will not live without hope or love. I will pretend I'm fine until I am! I am not hopeless. My mind still carries hope but only for love and at the time it seems to be going somewhere it is going to be good.
