I feel weird. I feel different. I haven't slept very much I haven't had one good thought in along time. I feel like I'm going crazy my mind is every where scatterbrained I can't think at all. I lose focus over the littlest things. I feel like I'm going to lose everything and everyone. I stare off into space my mind is giving up on me everyone says I'm acting different I am I'm irritable. My anxiety is extremely edgy. I freak out over the littlest things. I feel like I'm alone that I'm gunna lose the only one I have left the only one who cares. I'm scared, tired, confused, I hurt more than anyone will ever know. Am I losing it? Am I? I asks self it i can never answer it seems so pointless now that I know I will never know it my self. I hate what I feel I'm sad I'm angry I don't know what to do. I can't lose her but I feel like ill scare her away. If. Do I'm screwed. Ill have nothing. I love her. She's everything to me she is air to my lungs and blood to my heart I can't lose her. An I losing it?
