A Smile To Hide The Pain

It's Complicated

"Who is she?" Melody asked with her arms crossed 
"It's complicated...."  Elliot sighed softly.  
"No.  I want answers"
"That's Olivia.   She's the one I told you about.   She was missing for years and then she just showed up like it was nothing... I don't know.... she drove out to the middle of nowhere the other day and stayed there for hours.... "
"You still love her don't you?"
"I don't know how I feel...." he mumbled. 
"Well.  Call me when you do"  she said walking out. 

Elliot sighed frustrated as he paced trying to think.  He didn't understand why now?  Why did she have to show up now and not a year ago? He felt selfish thinking this. But it was how he felt. He decided he had to see her.

She heard a light knock on her door and almost jumped   she was making pancakes with Amelia as Eli took a nap.  She wasn't expecting anyone and she was still on edge.    She turned off the stove and cautiously walked to the door.   When she opened it and saw Elliot standing there she quickly went to close it. "Wait" he said as he stopped her 
"What?" she asked annoyed.
"I wanna meet my kid"
"She won't like you" Olivia said simply before slamming the door.  Elliot stood there a minute and Olivia slowly opened the door again .  She couldn't keep Amelia from him. She wouldn't be another Kathy.  
"She's in the kitchen. We're making pancakes" she said softly.   He walked in slowly and he began to feel nervous.  Olivia walked in just before him.  "Amelia there's someone I'd like you to meet. This is Elliot.... he's your dad" 'she said quietly.   Amelia smiled but her smile quickly faded as Olivia walked out.
"Are you gonna do things to her like uncle Nick?" she whispered.
"No... What did he do to her?" he asked picking her up. 
"Bad things. ... me and Eli have to hide in the closet when he comes.  She has to do what he says or he won't feed us.  But on Fridays he brings us things if we're good.   Like clothes and bread.  Today is gonna be my first time trying pancakes.  Mommy says they're really good" she smiled.
"Where did uncle Nick keep you?" Elliot asked intrigued.  
"In our room.   But mommy says we don't live there anymore"
"Yes.  You never have to go back ever"
"But it's my home"
"No.  This is your home.   And what that man did to you was very wrong"
"Oh..." she says quietly and Elliot could tell she didn't fully understand.
"Come on.  Let's finish these pancakes"  he smiled and Amelia nodded excitedly.  Olivia walked in slowly and watched them from the doorway.  Elliot was so good with Amelia.   He made her laugh and smile, which made Olivia happy.

As Amelia ate  her pancakes Elliot walked to Olivia.   "Liv I want to be a family again" he said softly and she shook her head. 
"We can't. .. things are complicated. .. you have Melody.   I have Eli to think about.   You're not gonna wanna raise another man's child and I don't want you to resent him for that" she said walking to Eli's room.  She still hadn't told him about the baby.  She picked Eli up and he smiled excitedly.  Elliot didn't look at him.
"That's not true.  I want a life with you Liv.   I want to start over.  I've never stopped living you.   I just didn't think I'd ever see you again" he said looking into her eyes.  She ignored his words as she looked down at Eli. 
"Why aren't you looking at him"  she said quietly. 
"What...?"
"You expect me to believe we can be a family when you can't even look at him"
"Liv.... It's just...."
"It's just what?!  Is he not good enough for you because he was conceived by rape? Because if that's the case then I'm not good enough for you either!"
"No... no I didn't mean it like that. .. I just meant. .."
"I know what you meant" she said tearfully.   Amelia walked in as Olivia began to cry. 
"You said you wouldn't hurt us! You said you cared!" she yelled running off. 
"Get out"  Olivia said angrily.  Her eyes went cold. Elliot looked at her a minute before walking out quickly.    He felt guilty.  He had hurt her more than she had already been hurting.... He needed to fix it.

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