Block B (ManxMan|MC|Mpreg) - BLOCK SERIES - BOOK 2

Chapter #4| Decisions

L E O N

I placed the roses on top of the tomb stone, Simon use to love roses. Standing in front of his grave like I normally do, I explain my problems to him. I clean his tomb making sure his grave looks nice and clean, I grab a bottle of vodka out of the bag, also grabbing two shot glasses I poured us a drink. Placing the shot glass on the tomb, I wished him a happy birthday, I drank both glass as I stared at the blue sky. A week gone by, staying in this small town for god how long, I visited his grave everyday wanting to distract myself.

"I miss you Simon" I said. No matter where I am Jones still manage to haunt me, his smile, laugh and his moans filled my mind. I look down away from the blue sky remembering his cries, remembering him begging me to love him. I don't deserve to be loved, I couldn't save Simon and I'll never forgive myself.

"Get the f*ck up you asshole!" someone growled. I looked up seeing Calvin staring down at me, he looked pissed.

"W-What are you doing here?" I asked

"Here to fix your f*cking problems as usual" he replied. Calvin shoved a folder onto my chest, I looked at him confused.

"Back then you refused to be believe me, you thought you were in love with him but you weren't. You were blinded by the idea of love and it never was. I hurts me to see you in pain and it hurts me that our brotherly relationship is destroyed because of Simon" said Calvin

"It's none of your businesses" I growled in anger throwing the folder to the ground as papers scattered on the green grass.

"Wake up Leon, stop running away from your problems because you don't realise what you have until they're gone so fix it before it's to late" he replied

"You drove all the way here to tell me this?! Don't waste your time" I said. He chuckled, Calvin gripped on the chest pulling me close.

"Believe me I'd rather be at home with my daughter and Fernando then be here talking to you" he says

"Read that file carefully and make a decision, it's all up to you now" he said. Calvin hopped on his bike and drove away. Watching my brother disappear in the distance, I sat down and picked up the papers. My eyes widen reading the paper stating evidence police found at his home and illegal weapons that belonged him at his friends house. I looked at photo's of Simon at different men's house and leaving wearing different clothes.

I couldn't believe what I was seeing, this isn't Simon it couldn't be him, he wouldn't do that to me. The more I read the more it seem real, he never loved me it was all a lie and I believed it. I dropped the papers unable to control my shaky hands, I looked at the grave I quickly stand and grab the roses ripping them apart. I stomped on his grave yelling at him for all the lies he's given me, for tearing my relationship with Calvin apart.

My mind drifted away, now I can only think about Jones and the painful expression he's given me when I told him to leave. I continue looking behind wondering if he'll pop out of no where and ready to arrest me, I rejected him, he won't chase me anymore. How foolish could I be, I believed Simons lies, believing I loved him but it's just what Calvin says, I didn't love him, I never did. I pulled out my lighter burning the folder, I let it burn on his grave burning away the memories and the pain. It's time to move on, it's time forget about him.

"Goodbye" I said and ran towards my bike. I love Jones, I laughed feeling relief that I now realise I am in love with Jones. I called his phone but it went to voice mail, I cursed and turned on the bike driving back to Brisbane. I am going to make things right, I am going to fight for Jones and beg for forgiveness, I won't stop until he forgives me.

J O N E S

I stared at pregnancy test seeing two lines which means I am pregnant, I couldn't believe it I am pregnant with Leon's baby. I cried in the bathroom knowing I'll be alone raising this baby alone without Leon, it's been a week since that day. I tried my best to distract myself making sure I don't think about him but as the days go by it's becoming impossible.

How can you forget the man you loved for years, those feelings don't go away within a week. I touched my flat stomach, what am I going to do with my life. I chose Leon over my job, my boss found out and he had no choice but to fire me. He's the only one who found out what I've done and I begged him to not press charges which he agreed on keeping it secret but in returned I needed to leave. I fought for him but I come to realise it wasn't worth it, he didn't feel the same way and in the end I am heart broken all over again.

I drove to the club house, I needed to tell Calvin maybe he'll know what to do. Walking in without my badge and uniform and already I've gotten death stares from members. Everyone hates cops and I don't blame them.

"Officer Jones, what are you doing here?" asked Reaper I believe is his name.

"It's just Jones, I-Is Calvin here?" I asked

"No but Fernando is" he replied. I sighed, seeing Fernando walk into the living room with his beautiful daughter, he smiled waving me inside.

"Hey! Calvin isn't here but you can talk to me if you want" he says. Seeing Xander and his men playing with their children. Their son Julian and the twins squealing playing with their fathers, the Italians I've heard stories about them.

"I-I can come another time" I said. Suddenly I quickly covered my mouth, I dashed towards the bathroom remembering where it was from my previous visit.

"Open the door Jones" said Fernando. I wiped my mouth flushing the toilet, I quickly washed my hands and opened the door.

"Oh dear, you look pale" he says.

"I'm fine" I replied

"No your not, come and sit down" Fernando said. I sat on the couch, Xander handed me a glass of water as they sat seated beside me. I wasn't sure whether to tell them about my pregnancy, I am not that close with either of them. But I felt like I could trust them, I confessed everything what happened between Leon and I to explaining about my sudden pregnancy. I was afraid wondering I'll be a good parent or not, I was scared raising my baby alone. They assured me I am not alone and they'll help me during my pregnancy, the pain in my heart still remains, I hate being alone.

It's scary being alone .....