Letters to our Past #Wattys2016

First letter

I was staring at the empty sheet in front of me. Should I really do this? I've been asking myself this question over and over again, always coming to another conclusion.

But in the end my heart outweighs the voice in my mind. I know I can not see where this will be leading and what kind of responses I will get but I need to do it for me. To get back some of the inner peace I lost the day I found the box. The box that held all our memories. Memories from a much happier time. 

I look at the green box that is standing on my drawer since five days. And this time I know I can do it. I have to do it. For me. For my heart. And maybe for him as well.

I take one final breath before I take my pen and start to write: 

Spring 2024

My angel

We've met 12 years ago. Do you remember just how young we were? 

How innocent we were back then at the age of 17, thinking love was everything we needed. It never crossed our minds that this saying isn't true at all. 

Since when have we been friends? Honestly I have to admit that I don't remember it anymore. 

But what I do remember is a bus ride at our school trip. After a very tiring bicycle tour I got on a crowded bus with no place left for me to sit down. My knees were aching I desperately longed for a seat to sit down. That was when I saw you grinning at me. Sitting on one of the few seats. We didn't really know each other back then, had just talked a couple of times. Still your smile seemed like an invitation to me. I made my way through the crowd and asked if I could sit down at your lap. Others would have thought of my question as a cheap chat-up line but you knew I was just extremely exhausted. 

Sitting on your lap with the sun shining in, letting your blue eyes sparkle and laughing as if we've known each other ever since, that's the very first memory I have about the two of us. 

There were so many others to follow. Many of them are connected with a small stage at the end of the school, with costumes and make-up and a lot of forbidden temptation we shouldn't have given in to back then. 

I miss this time so much. What about you?

There are so many days where I find myself wishing to go back. You have no idea just how much I would give, to relive those memories just once again. 

Back in the days, when everything seemed alright. Days without worries that come with real life, days where we used to make plans about the unknown future.

A future that would never come. 

But just for now, for the sake of us, let me take you back in time and relive these moments again.

In love always

L.