No homo tho | riren

Chapter 10

Eren's pov

Me and Levi watched the movie. I didn't really like it. There was several times that I looked away.

The movie was almost done and I laid my head on Levi's shoulder. I don't really know why. He looked confused at me.

"Uhm, Eren, what are you doing?"

"I'm leaning on you, what does it look like?" I answered.

"Yeah, but why are you leaning on my shoulder?"

"Because I'm tired"

"Then go to sleep"

"I don't wanna sleep" he sighed.

"Why don't you wanna go to sleep?"

"Because I wanna stay here with you" I don't know what I was saying, it was just words coming out from my mouth.

"Oh really?" He smirked and put the mac away. He leaned in. He was a few centimeters away from me and stopped.

"Aren't you gonna stop me?" He asked. I shook my head. "Why?"

"Because I don't care anymore"

"What do you mean?"

"I don't care who I kiss. It doesn't even matter because no one is ever gonna like me!" He backed up.

"Eren, don't say that. I'm sure there is someone out there"

"Well, I'm not just gonna sit around waiting for them"

"Eren, you're not yourself right now"

"So?"

"I don't like this Eren, I like the shy, old Eren" I meant what I said. I don't care about who I kiss or sleep with.

I looked at Levi the whole time. Admiring his beauty. I looked at his eyes and then his lips. They looked so soft, I just wanted to kiss him. This is not how I usually think. I would never kiss a guy but Levi made me feel different. I didn't think like that for a few days ago but after what happened yesterday something changed.

I leaned closely to him and tried to kiss him but he backed up.

"Eren, what the fuck?!" He widened his eyes. My cheeks were burning.

"I'm sorry, I thought... I thought you..."

"Why did you do that?" I started to cry. "Jeez Eren, please don't cry"

"I'm sorry! I don't know what's going on with me"

"Please tell me why you tried to kiss me" I thought about it.

"Because I felt for it"

"You did? Because usually it's me that try to kiss you"

"It's just that when we were at that party and saw you with all these girls I felt kinda... Jealous..."

"You just admit it like that?"

"I'm not good at hiding things okay?"

"Okay okay, I understand. But what happened with Mikasa?" he sat in front of me and wiped my tears.

"Uhm, I just don't want to talk about it"

"Okay..."

"But why did you pull away?" I asked.

"Because I'm not like you. I don't do that kind of stuff"

"Then why did you kiss me?"

"I was just kidding with you" Now I started to cry even more. "Eren, seriously"

"I thought you liked me" I sobbed.

"I do, I really do. Just... I don't know, I'm confused too" I cried even more.

"Why doesn't anyone like me!"

"Eren, seriously. I bet there is at least one girl that likes you"

"I don't care if it isn't someone I don't know!"

"Would you please stop crying?" I tried but I couldn't. "If you keep crying I have to kiss you"

"You would?"

"Damn it, that only worked before" I cried even more.

Levi grabbed my face and leaned slowly into me. Our lips touched. I wouldn't call it really passionate but it was at least a kiss. He pulled away and looked at me.

"That never happened, okay?" I nodded fast. I just got my first real kiss. And so did Levi. I think. We just sat there in silence till he broke it.

"Wanna do it again?" He asked. I nodded again. "But first you have to clean your face" I did like he said.

Now I leaned in and it was passionate. He entered his tongue in my mouth. He held his hand in my hair. Everything was perfect. We pulled away and took a breath. I sat on his lap with my legs on either side of his legs. I buried my face in his neck.

I felt loved for once. Whenever I'm with him I can be myself.

A/N: I know this is short but I'm out of ideas.