The Nanny

Insecurities

"Okay. So his bottle is ready, and I brought some extra but I don't think he'll take a second bottle tonight. I also wrote down how he likes it. He's teething so there's some of that gel stuff for his gums and a teether in the side pocket," I said patting the end of the diaper bag. "Also my cell phone number is on a sheet of paper along with his pediatrician and Niall's cell number just in case you can't reach me. I don't think we'll be out very late but if anything hap-"

"Ari." Tessa cut me off with a grin and an eye roll as she bounced a happy Jamie on her hip. "You do this every time. I've got this. It's not my first go around. Calm down and don't worry, we'll be fine. You go have a good time. You deserve it darling."

I bit me lip looking from Tessa's kind face to Jamie who giggled at me. Taking a deep breath I shut my eyes and gave in. "Okay. Just don't hesitate to call me alright." I said looking at Tessa pleadingly before leaning forward and placing a kiss on my baby's head. "See you later little man. I love you."

I waved one last time, looking longingly at Jamie as I stepped out of Tessa's apartment and walked the few feet to Kendra's. She was supposed to help me get ready for the event Niall was taking me to tonight seeing as I had nothing suitable for this type of thing. Nor did I have any idea what would be suitable.

"There you are. Come on we don't have much time. El called and said that Louis was picking her up at 7 so I'm assuming Romeo is picking you up before that time for your date."

Kendra didn't even let me step through the door fully before she was dragging me towards her bedroom. "It's not a date."

"Sure it's not."

I wasn't at all surprised Eleanor had called Kendra. I had learned after being hired that it was Eleanor who had told Kendra about the job for me. Apparently the two were friends from Uni -I was slowly picking up the lingo- before Kendra decided she didn't need to keep going to school with the amount of money she was inheriting.

Aside from Niall, Eleanor was the only one who knew I was joining them tonight. Niall had thought it would be best to keep it to ourselves since the boys had a hard time keeping secrets amongst themselves and Eleanor only found out because Kendra has a big mouth, but she swore to keep it hushed. I had the feeling she wanted to see the reaction.

I wondered how Harry would take it. We had just begun some form of a tentative friendship and as much as I hated to admit it I didn't want to risk it. I kind of liked being on good terms with him.

I was kind of scared what would be the outcome of this when he realizes that I had been withholding this information from him.

He knew I had plans tonight, he even asked his mother to watch Darcy for the evening but I had a sneaking suspicion he wouldn't be too pleased with me showing up at this thing. Not for the first time I wondered why I was going to this thing again.

And then Niall would pop into my mind. He was so excited about this, it was cute. I could only imagine it was because he had never brought a date to one of these things before. He kept promising to make it fun for me and that I would have a good time. I didn't want to tell him it was hard for me to do so when I knew this was just a disaster waiting to happen.

But then again, maybe it wouldn't be so bad. I mean, come on, it could be fun to watch Harry bust a gasket in front of all those important people, and what girl didn't like getting glammed up every now and again.

"This will look amazing on you. You have all the right curves for this. You should thank Jamie because pregnancy did your body good girl." Kendra gushed as she thrust a silky piece of fabric at me. I looked at it like it was a forging object. I tried to unravel it from the jumbles mess it was but Ken didn't give me much time to figure it out as she quickly shoved me into her bathroom and slammed the door in my face.