You Took the Pain Away

21

A Few Months Later 

Nicki Pov

NIcki: Baby come on we gotta go

Meek: Baby if we go now, we gonna be a hour early

Today me and Rihmeek were gonna find out the sex of the baby, I was so excited. 

Meek: Baby come sit down

She walked over to me and sat in my lap

Nicki: Where's Papi

Meek: When you were sleep, Tak came over and I got him to take Papi to get a hair cut

NIcki: Oh okay

Meek: Why you trying to do something

Nicki: Maybe

We were about to get up and the door bell rang

Meek: A nigga cant even fuck his fiance without people interrupting

I laughed because of how serious he was. I heard Meek open the door and Papi came running in

Papi: Mommy!

NIcki: Hey baby

Papi: Uncle Tak told me that we were going to find out if i was gonna have a little sister or a little brother

Nicki: We are

He looked happy and then he smile faded away

Nicki: Whats wrong Papi

Papi: What if im a not a good big brother, what if he or she doesnt like me, what if im mean to them like Fah was mean to me, because thats what she did to me

Nicki: Come here Papi

She was looking at the ground walking over to me, I lifted his head with my finger

Nicki: Pap me and daddy are gonna help you learn how to be good big brother, you dont have to worry about you bring mean like Fah was to you she's a heartless person, you gonna love your brother or sister right

Papi: Yeah

Nicki: Then baby boy that all that matters, you are loved here and the new baby will be love too. 

Papi: I already knew that Fah didnt love me, I dont know why I tried to get her to

Nicki: Do you miss her

Papi: No, but if I saw her again, I would probally tell her that I hated her.. And i know its a strong word to use but I do

When he said that it broke my heart, I tried not to crying in front of him; i hate crying. Before I could stop myself, I started

Papi: Mommy dont cry, I didnt mean to make you sad

He crawled in my lap, and hugged me wiping my tears.

Nicki: Im okay Papi

I was crying at the fact he knew it and that would be here memory of her, but I hate the bitch regardless

Meek: Baby you.. Baby whats wrong

Papi: I made her sad, it was an accident

Nicki: Im fine baby

I wiped my tears and Papi laid on my chest. I rubbed his fresh haircut and kissed his forehead.

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 At the DR office

We were in the back waiting on the doctor to come back. 

Papi: Dad you think its a girl or a boy