Can I Show This Thug Love?

My Baby

Rolland's POV

I've been living with Lucky and his mother for two weeks now. Eva and I have grown close to one another and do things when she gets off of work.

Today we got a manicure and pedicure at L.A. Nails. I was sitting in the chair while Ms.Eva picked out both of our colors.

When she came back I had seen that she chose a light pink for me and a baby blue for herself. She than sat down while the water was running.

"How are you doing sweety?" She smiled and handed the woman the color for my toes.

"I'm okay. But thank you again Ms.Eva for letting me stay with you guys. I promise I wont be there too long." Assuring her that I wouldn't take advantage of her welcoming me.

She waved me off, "Honey, I don't mind. I need the company; and I'm sure you do too."

I smiled than grabbed her hand. The women was scrubbing the bottom of my foot and it tickled. I tried not to laugh, and grabbed her hand tighter. When she was done I let go.

"You're ridiculous." She giggled. "So are you excited about prom?"

"I don't think I want to go. I feel like only seniors should; the thought of junior/senior prom is stupid."

"Have you and Lucky talked about it at all?" She said looking at the man doing her toes.

"Yes, he agreed."

Thirty minutes later, our nails were done and we left the shop. We drove home, but Eva dropped me off; she had plans.

"Bye Honey." She waved

"Bye mom." I closed the car door then stood still, I looked back at Ms.Eva and she smiled.

I turned back around and walked to the door and hit it with my palm since I didn't want to ruin my nails. Moments later, some tall skinny guy answered the door.

"Wassup?"

"Excuse me." I walked pass him and entered the house. It smelled like nothing but weed. I was use to the smell, and looked in the living room; only to find more men.

All of their eyes were glued on me and I felt awkward. I felt someone grab my waist and I thought it was the guy that answered the door but it was Lucky.

"Hey baby." He kissed me deeply. I could taste alcohol in his mouth and pulled back quickly.

He looked down at me then up. "Oh yea. Boys this my baby Rolland. Rolland this is Sin, Loyal, Profit and T." I nodded then laughed a little.

"What's funny?" Lucky asked.

"Y'all mama's named y'all that?"

They all nodded except T. "Ya real name isn't T?"

He shook his head No, "It's Tyrone but everyone knows that if something bad happens it's always Tyrone's fault.

I nodded and he proceeded to finish, " So I changed it to T."

I turned back to Lucky and he held my waist. "Do you plan on getting drunk?" I asked.

"Nah, I know you hate when I do. I finished my last drink." He pulled me into another kiss; it was quick.

He bent down and whispered in my ear, "You're mine." I smiled and got out his grip. I then ran up the stairs into our room.

Oh yeah, I forgot to say that Lucky and I made it official a week ago. I was happy but deep down inside I felt like I betrayed my brother and father.

I haven't talk to my father since the incident. But I kept in touch with Robynn. I told him about Lucky and I and he seemed happy, and Rob and Lucky had there first ever conversation with one another not too long ago.

I knew that deep down Robynn was angry at me but he's getting over it, sloooooowly. And as far as I know of, he isn't dating Jaylen but that girl Mareah. She still pisses me of but I might learn to get over it as long as she doesn't use Robynn.

I walked over to my bags and grabbed a bra, panties, grey sweats and my pink and white shirt that said Nike. I laid it on the bed and went into the bathroom. I ran some bath water while stripping out of my clothes. When it was full, I closed the bathroom door, shut the water off and got it.

"This feels amazing." I mumbled to myself.

After ten minutes of relaxing, I washed up, shaved and got out and drained the water. I grabbed a towel off the rack and wrapped it around my body. I opened the door and seen that Lucky was sitting on his bed.

He looked at me then to the floor. "You're dripping water on the carpet."

"It'll dry." I mumbled. I walked over to his fan in the corner.

"Are your boys gone?" I said still looking at the fan.

"Yea, why?"

I turned on the fan and dropped my towel to the floor. I stood there for a moment than turned around.

Lucky bit his lip and had lust in his eyes. "Damn." Was all I heard him say.

"Shut up." I stood looking him then he got up and walked towards me.

He kissed me for awhile and I almost fell into his trap, but pulled back. He looked disappointed and I giggled then grabbed my towel drying the rest of my body that the fan didn't get.

Once I was done, I walked to my bag grabbing lotion and started putting it on my legs, arms and stomach. I still had the bottle in my hand and tossed it to Lucky.

"I can't reach my back.." I walked and stood in front of him. He started rubbing lotion on me and it felt good. He was giving me, some what of a massage. When he finished I put my clothes on.

I grabbed my phone and called my mother.

"Yes?" She sounded angry.

"Hey mom, how are you?" I asked quiet.

"Fine."

"Can I come see you, today?" I said a little happy.

"I don't want to see you. You left me, so don't come back."

I was silent and she hung up. I mean, I know that I left but it was better that way. And she was still my mother and I wanted to see her.

The tear finally fell and I felt Lucky grab my arm and pull me towards him. I cried in his chest and held him tight.

"S-she doesn't want me!!!" I screamed.

He was rubbing my back and telling me that everything was going to be okay, but it wasn't. My mother doesn't want me, my father probably hates me and the guy I like is my brother's enemy. Tell me how ALL of that is going to get better. I don't care how much Lucky and Robynn talk, a CRIP will NEVER like a BLOOD.

You're probably thinking, Rolland that's a lie; you're a blood and you like Lucky but he's a crip...It's not the same, I was born in a blood family, never raised like one. And I never liked to rep being a blood.

I didn't notice but through all my thinking and crying, Lucky had picked me up and was holding me. My legs were wrapped around his torso and my arms to his neck.

"you okay baby?"

I didn't respond with words, I just held him tighter and he knew.

"Wanna go to the lake?" He placed me on the ground and held my face between his hands.

His thumbs swept across my face wiping my tears away. I nodded and he pecked me on the lips.

"Wait here okay?" he pointed to the bed and I sat down. He went to the shower, ten minutes later got dressed and we left to the lake.

It took us forty-five minutes to get there. I grabbed a blanket from the back seat and we walked out into the sand. There weren't many people there since it was late, and the sun was almost gone.

We picked out a good spot and I laid the blanket down and we sat. I was in between his legs and his arms where over mine.

"Where's your dad?" I asked breaking the silence.

I heard his heart beat faster, "Last I heard. He was in Las Vegas with his wife and kids, he was in the military but retired."

"I want to talk about personal things."

I felt him look down at me. "Like what?"

"Childhood, first kiss, first girlfriend.. things like that." I moved closer to him.

" My childhood was good. I had a mom and dad for about six years. I have three brothers, Lamont, Lee and Lamar."

We both laughed. "Ms.Eva really likes the letter L."

"Yeah.. Lee is the oldest; Sanity's baby daddy. Then there's me, Lamont and Lamar who are twins."

" Why haven't I seen them?"

"My Pops took them when he left to Las Vegas."

"Why didn't he take you?"

"I didn't want to leave moms. So I stayed."

"Damn.."

" You'll meet them one day. But now its your turn."

I huffed, " My childhood was a hell hole, after my dad and mom split up. When my mom got with Shawn her fiance or whatever.. she wasn't the same. So I had to lend on Robynn to do a lot of things for me; even though he's only a year older. But he was there."

"When ya moms and Shawn get together?" he asked.

"Five years ago, they just made it official two, and got engaged one year ago."

"What about your first boyfriend?"

" His name was Jordan, we met at a summer school. He was my first kiss too and we were eight. But he broke up with me because I accidentally touched his nuts."

Lucky was laughing obnoxiously loud, "You serious Rolland?" He managed to say.

"yes, Luck." I folded my arms.

"Awe, I'm sorry for laughing baby." He hugged me

"Yeah whatever. What about you?"

"It was this girl named Julia. We were eight too and I was sprung off her. I used to tell my friends that she would let me kiss her in front of her mama. But we never kissed and she broke up with me because I kissed her best friend Salina."

"You was a player back then, huh?" I smiled up at him.

" I got ALL the girls." He grinned. " So what's ya favorite food?"

"Mexican, yours?" I grabbed his hand and in twined our fingers together.

"Soul food."

I looked up at him, " Boy what you know about Soul Food?"

He laughed, "A lot. I'll cook for you one day. If you're Lucky."

"How does it feel using your name in a sentence but knowing it had a different meaning?" I laughed.

"You slow.." He shook his head.

"Nah, I'm fast.." I smirked.

The rest of the night was good. When we got home it was 11:27. We went into his room quietly since Eva was sleeping. He turned on the T.V. while I stripped of my sweats and tee then got in bed.

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Lucky's POV

Tonight was a good night. I'm happy I got to know more about Rolland and joke with her. She's definitely the type you want to keep forever, but you know if you do her wrong she gone bounce.

I took off my shirt and pants and got in bed with her. We had a small conversation, then she fell asleep on me.

I was watching T.V. and remembered how every year in June my moms side of the family has a gathering; I want them to meet my girl.

I looked to my side at her and she looked peaceful. I kissed her forehead, turned off the T.V. and went to bed.