She'll Never Be Me

Chapter 18

It's been 3 weeks since I found out that my lover, my Bestfriend, my husband betrayed me I have been stuck in the house crying most of the time. Jason was calling my phone non stop so I turned it off a week ago he has even came here but Versa shuts him down. It is still very hard for me to cope with what he did to me but I'm taking it day by day. I've been avoiding him but today was the day I had to stop I was going to my old home to get all my stuff bracing myself I grabbed my bag and met Versa in the car...

"Are you ready?" She asked.

"Not really but it's time to get it over with?" I said

"Did you grab the papers?" She asked

"Yup in my purse" I said

We kept driving in silence until we finally pulled up...

"Stay in the car until I call you ok?" I said

"Alright" she said

I sighed then walked up to my door I took a deep breath before opening it...walking in I didn't hear Jason so I walked up the stairs to my room I was pulling my bags and clothes out when I heard someone...

"Tanisha?" I heard a voice say

Turning around I looked to see Jason he looked different his eyes was red and he looked like he haven't slept in days. He walked up to me and hugged my stiff body...

"Baby I missed you so much! I've been trying to find you but everybody said they didn't know where you were I'm so happy you home! How is my baby?" He said

"She's good Jason bu-" I started

"im happy that your ok. I haven't been able to sleep with out you. I really missed you baby yo-" he started

"Jason I'm n-" I started

"Baby do you need somet-" he started

"Jason shut up and let me talk!" I yelled

"I'm sorry" he said

"Jason I'm moving out." I said

"What!" He said

"I'm moving out! I can't stay here anymore." I said

"No no no you can't do that! You can't leave me Tanisha you mean the world to me! I can't lose you!" He said

"Jason what you did to me was just to hurtful for me. By far the worst thing I have been through" I said

"We can fix this! We have to! Don't do this to me!" He said

"This is something we can never fix. I'm sorry Jason but I'm done!" I cried

He came up to me and hugged me I hugged him and then slowly backed up wiping my face I dug in my purse and pulled out the papers handing them to him he looked at them and through them across the room and punched the wall I jumped then backed away from him some more...

"Is this really what you want!" He yelled

I didn't respond I just looked at him as he walked up to me..

"Answer me!" He yelled

"Jason stop yelling. Please" I said

"Answer me damn it!" He yelled

"it's what I need." I said

"But we have a child on the way! What about what she needs!" He yelled

"Jason YOU did this to our family! You decided to sleep with that bitch and get her pregnant! So don't make it seem like I'm selfish because if I recall correctly you are the one that cheated!" I yelled

"I know and baby that was a big mistake! I'm trying to work on our future that was the past!" He said

"Jason I'm doing what's best for me and my child" I said

"Getting a divorce is not what's best for our child! Your not even trying to fix our marriage!" He said

"The damage is done! There is no fixing it! We ca- I just can't get over this one!" I said

"Baby please don't do this to me!" He said

"You did this to us!" I said

"Yes I made a mistake. A big mistake! But Tanisha I have never loved another women like I love you! You mean everything to me! You always put a smile on my face you are the one that kept me going on my bad days! You are the one that's giving me a baby girl that I know will grow up to be just like her strong beautiful mother and I love you for all of it I know that it may take months even years to build your trust and love back but baby ill do whatever it takes I love you so much and losing you means I have no more purpose. Please baby.." He said

"Jason you know I love you. I always will.. I don't hate you for what you did to me always remember that. Our marriage Is just really damaged right now.You did hurt me but as time goes by my heart will heal and in order for me to do that I need to walk away. Now just because I'm walking away don't mean our daughter will you will have all rights to see your daughter I would never take her away from you." I said

I walked up to him and places my hand on his face...

"But I have to walk away for me. It-" I started

He snatched away from me and walked out the door, few minutes later I heard his car speed off.

Sighing I called Versa in to help me. By the time we had got some of the boxes in the car Versa drove them home while I continued to pack. It was hard because I was worried about Jason, I know Jason and when he gets mad he do crazy stuff. My phone began to ring and I picked it up not looking at the name....

Me:hello?

?:what you up to?

Me:nothing much Leon what you up to?

Leon:just trying to go get something to eat. You down?

Me:...