She'll Never Be Me

Chapter 21

Me:alright come get me from my house.

Jason:alright.

I hung up the phone and went back into Leon room...

"Leon I need a big favor." I said

"Sure wassup?" He asked

"I need a ride home." I said.

"What about malia I don't wanna just leave her and I sure don't wanna wake her up..." He said

"Ok." I said

"But you can take my car." He said

"Really?" I asked..

"Yea just come and get me in the morning." He said.

"Ok what time?" I asked.

"Like around 9am" he said

"Ok. Thanks!" I said

After hugging him I got into his car and headed back home...before I could park I already seen Jason car. I silently prepared myself then gathered my purse and wobbled to his car, he hopped out and helped me into the car then got in hisself..

"so how's things going?" He asked

"ok. " I said

"and how is my daughter? " he asked

"she's good. " I said

"new car?" He asked

"To many questions, and no that's Leon's" I said

As soon as he heard that he turned to me and looked at me crazy...

"You fuckin with him now!?" He yelled

"No Jason!" I said

"Then what you doing driving his car?" he asked

"That's none of your business. Just know that I'm not sleeping with him or anyone else. I'm pregnant remember you ass" I said pointing at my stomach.

"I'm sorry if I upsetted you." He said

"I'm really tired! My back and feet are hurting so if you don't mind I would love to go in my house and lay down." I said.

"Tanisha I really miss you so much...I can't imagine my life without you." He said

"Jason I can't deal with this right. Now, I'm STILL trying to register it all in... You've been lying and cheating this whole time!" I yelled beginning to cry.

"I know and if I could take it all back I would. I hurt you I know." He said

"I'm tired of that bullshit! I'm done! I have NOTHING against you but it's time to start doing for me." I said.

"Man here you go!" He said.

"Jason I'm serious! I'm done! You can see your daughter anytime you please but as far as me and you...I'm done so I suggest you sign them papers" I said.

"oh so you got balls now? You running shit now? After all we been through you want to throw it away!? Over some hoe!?" He yelled

"Over the hoe you fucked yea! Now goodbye!" I said

I was about to get out but he grabbed arm, when he seen the serious look on my face he let go...

"Sorry...I just want to talk that's all." He said

"That's what we've been doing!" I said

"Tanisha can I just say something?" He asked

"What is it now!?" I said irritated

"You remember all the problems we had?..." He started.

"Oh please Jason! Don't start that whole "You had part in this" crap!" I said

"Just listen...we was having problems and I would always ask you 'Are you riding with me?' And what was your answer?" He asked

"Don't do this." I simply said

"No what did you say!?" He yelled.

"I know what I said Jason!" I said

"Correct me if I'm wrong you said 'Of course baby, my vows to you I meant every word!' So now that things are bad you are willing to give it all up!? " he said

"Don't you dare put this on me! You are the reason things are bad!" I yelled

"I FUCKED UP AND I KNOW THAT!" He screamed

"(Crying) just great! You are taking all your frustration out on me, did you forget that I'm pregnant Jason!? I can't be stressing!" I said

"I'm not taking my frustrations out on you baby no I'm just trying to plead my case! I know that you are pregnant and the last thing I want is to harm my daughter in anyway." He said

"(Sighing) Jason I may not take consideration on your feelings right at this moment...but I want you to know that I have been listening to you. I know that you are sorry, and I know that you love me, I know that you love and want your daughter to have a happy family...but how when the family is not happy? You don't think that I miss you?,want you to hold me, rub my belly and tell your daughter about her daddy? Because I do like crazy! But like I said we can't be a happy family because we are no where near happy" I said

I was honest to Jason as the tears came down...I wanted my husband back but I knew that we couldn't stay together... I didn't even know when or if I would ever forgive him...

"So that's it?" He asked

"What else do you want me to say? We can stay in touch because we do have a daughter on the way everything else will soon be laid as time goes on" I said

"That's really some bullshit!" He said

"So was you sleeping with karina! Jason I'm done with this conversation!" I said rolling my eyes

"I'm sitting here pouring my heart out to you and you just shove it back in my face!!! I messed up I know I've gave you time! I can't take it anymore Tanisha!" He said

"It's not that simple Jason!" I said

"It is your just making it difficult!" He said

"So what Jason you expect me to just forget it all!? Forget that you betrayed me! That you lied and cheated!!! It's taking a lot for me not to slap you right now! You are really pissing me off!" I said

"Man" he said

"And don't let me get to how I had to find out from someone else! You had bitches out there talking about me! I'm out here thinking I had a man my man when in fact I was sharing him with my Bestfriend! Do you know how stupid I looked!? No you don't! Know why? Because I was faithful to your cheating ass!" I yelled

I was so mad because he had the nerve to bring up that bullshit! I opened the door and slammed it! I was so done with everything....