Maybe

Second

Wearing black always used to calm me. Why it has that effect on me, I haven't the faintest clue.
But now as I stand here next to your open casket, it takes all I have not to lose control, fall on my knees and weep for you. Everyone around me, your family and your friends, are trying to do the same. We all lost you way too soon.
If you could see them now... You would see how much they loved you and how your presence made a real difference. You might also see the regret on their faces for not letting you know sooner.