Everything begun when he, Ren, joined Trapnest.
I couldn't describe how happy I was to work with such a genius. Everyday was such a fun filled day with a lot of laughs but sooner or later I knew something will change and to be honest I was right. I've fallen in love with him before I could regnoize it.
I can't let them destroy our work relation or else everything will go down to waste. I really need to stop the development of these forbidden feelings and searched distance from the whole band even Reira wondered.
At some point everything begun to change dramatically.
Trapnest is celebrating with their stuff the success of their tour which means I'm invited too.
Sliding the door down I lower my head "What should I do?" I whisper into the darkend room. If I won't show up everyone will be worried and keep asking why I haven't come for the party. I don't have a choice left or so it seems for me. I love Ren so much that I can't stand it anymore. Taking a deep breath I stand up feeling anxious to meet all of them "get a hold of yourself. You're Reira's personal Assistent!" I say and clap my cheeks before walking out from the room. Just show up a bit and then disappear. Sliding the room card into my cardigan I walk out from the room closing the door behind me "Is this right? After all I haven't seen the band meets for quit a while now!" I say and turn my head around towards the elevator. Sighing I begin to walk towards the destination. The cold breezes calms me down as I walk on the borderline "Ren" I whisper and bite my lip
It didn't take long for me to arrive at the building where the bands were celebrating. You can do it. Keep repeating this and everything will turn out fine. Walking in I hear already their loud music. Entering the elevator I feel my heart beating rapidly against my chest. This is wrong. I shouldn't have come. As the door opens everyone is looking into my direction. Immediately Reira is running towards me with a smile across her shining lips "You came!" She said and embraced me "I missed you!" She whispers caressing my hair. She is the only one who knows about these unforgivable feelings towards Ren.
Reira drags me down to the bar ordering a cocktail for me to loosen up a bit "Go have fun!" I say and push her away from me. At first she refused but at some time she was dancing leaving me with my drink alone "I didn't think you would come!" Whispers a familiar voice. Ren. Turning around I gaze immediately into his eyes "This would be a shame for me. So I have to come but I'll leave soon!" I say and smile feeling uncomfortable being near him. Every bad member of Trapnest is seducing women I should be careful "If you excuse me I'll be going now!" I whisper and pass him placing my hand on his shoulder "Take care of yourself Ren!" I say and walk away from the crowd and loud music.
Hours passed since I've arrived in my room. Still I lay awake in my bed thinking about the encounter. Outta nowhere somebody us knocking against the door. Turning my head around the red letters are showing
3 a.m. in the morning. Getting up I open the door seeing the last one u thought I would see "Ren!" I whisper and see his dark eyes filled with sadness and regret. He pushes me inside closes the door behind him "What are you doing here? I thought it would be Reira? How did you find me?" I ask him and sigh "(F/N)" He whispers before embracing me tightly against his chest "you shouldn't have come here!" I say against his shoulder and try to struggle free from his strong grip. I walk backwards and he is still holding onto me as I slip and fall onto the bed.
Suddenly he is covering my lips with his. What are you doing? I'm shocked. Ren is trailing butterfly kisses down my collar bone as he starts to take his shirt of "Ren?" I whisper feeling still his warmth on my lips "don't run away anymore..." he whispers against my skin as he interwines our hands.
I don't want this to happen. Our relation will be ruined but I dot have the strength left to stop him.
Ren's warm and naked body is laying above me as we make love.
From that point on everything changed between us.
Ren and me would spend every hour together but no one knew about our relationship. We kept it a secret. Being loved and making love every day. It's natural that I couldn't atop my feelings at all. I wanted to be near him more and more. I desired him.
"(F/N) I think I'm in love with you!" Whispers Ren gently as he keeps caressing my naked back and kissing my swollen lips as we lat arm in arm together.
Today Trapnest and Black Stones would meet. I heard a lot of things about the new band.
Bringing Reira her white dress I feel anixouty raising inside of me. Shaking this feeling off I enter her room placing her dress on the coach and listen her singing starless night. So beautiful this lyrics and song. Smiling I walk out in search of the guitarist but what I meet stopped my breathing. Nana and Ren making out. I haven't taken notice of the falling tears as I watch them kissing. Within a second Ren looks up to me shocked to see me. Everyone said to me I should be careful. Everyone said to me he's loving nana still but I was so dump. Throwing the door behind me close I run away. Escaping everything and reality.
Goodbye Ren Honjo....
Let fate decide if we meet again.
