Nobody warned about Shin and what could happen. Everyone said Reira wouldn't be the one for him and so I tried.
He is jut like a mysterious creature which engulfes me in his secrets.
Now, at the private after show party from Blast and Trapnest, it seems just like my heart is being shattered into million pieces. It did hurt indeed. I risked too much. Standing behind him I see how Shin and Reira share a rather passionate Kiss "Why?" I whisper before slowly taking few steps back. My hands are trembling. I'm furious and so sad. I've trusted him. I won't forgive anymore. I have to get outta here. Running towards the staircase I stumble the first ones down Clutching my chest in a painful manner. I hear my name being called again and again but all they can hear is the sound of the heels. Nana was speechless.
Tears are blurring my vision as I step out from the building. Idiot. Idiot. I've wanted to heal his broken heart but I got mine broken. Walking towards my apartmant I keep sobbing and wiping my tears away. They seem endless. I can't think straight anymore. Suddenly someone grabs my wrist. I turn around immediately and see into dark grey eyes. Ren. Lowering my head I bite my lip to prevent any sound "I'm sorry. Come into the hotel across the room where we stay. It's better for you (F/N)!" He whispers and lays his arm around my shoulders guiding me away from the streets. Even Ren is worried. My whole body is trembling still. He is bringing me closer towards his warm chest. Many were gazing at us. Whispering and even taking photos. Nana "Ren. What about Nana? This is gonna be a scandal. She'll be angry." I say and grab his sleeve "don't worry I told her and she said it's better for you!" He answer smiles gently before bringing me in his room. I take a deep breath and sit on his bed. A double bed "can I take a bath?" I ask and hide my puffy red eyes from him. He nods before throwing me a t-shirt to change into later.
I grab his t-shirt and bite my lips. Why did it end up like this? Am I the one at fault. Ren comes infront of me and takes my face in his big warm hands "don't cry!" He says and wipes my tears away "I can't stand to see beautiful women crying!" He says and laughs. Suddenly my phone stays ro vibrate. Both of us are turning our heads around to see the caller ID....Shin. Gulping I look back as I stand up and walk inside the bathroom. I don't want to hear his voice at all. Letting the tub fill with hot water I begin Stripping down my clothes. Still the hickeys were visible. My body is covered in his scent. Slowly I slide one leg inside and then the other. I'll never love again. Why did I trust you? The heat engulfes my body in a gentle way letting my sore muscles relax. Am I cursed? Why did you do this? After a while Ren knocks against the door waking me up from the trance like stadium" I'll get out now!" I say and stretch my arms above my head before grabbing the towel near me. Putting it around my shoulders I rub my hair fry before wearing the T-shirt. Opening the door I see Ren shirtless standing before me smoking. Every girl would blush but it's creeping me out. We are like brother and sister. Pushing him away I sit on the bed gazing at him. It didn't take long for him to finish his business as he returns. Throwing his cigarette away he lays down sighing "I could have a passionate night but no...!" He mutters and turns around to face me "shut up pervert!"I hiss and lay back. Gently he pulls me to his chest "it's ok to cry. You Don't need to be strong!" He says and closes his eyes. I look up with teary eyes holding onto him like he'll rescue me.
The first sun rays woke me up immediately. I stand up dress in my clothes and leave a message for the perverted and loved Ren. Sighing I open the door and walk out as I see a familiar person waiting for the elevator. My heart beats fast. Shin? Why? I should have stayed longer. Where are the stairs? it's too late though he saw me. Nothing is being said at all but his eyes are staring at me. You take anything to make your day. You shoot right through my heart. Shin comes closer reaching his hand out towards my tears stained cheek. Gulping I step back "(F/N) forgive me...please!" He whispers and takes my hands in his. I avoid his eyes and close my eyes "plans fuck up. My bad!" I say and break his grip on my hands before leaving him. My heart is just broken.
Just to keep me from crying I laugh.
