creating constellations

mess

a stream of consciousness

i live in constant fear that i will never find someone that truly loves me and it's killing me. i don't know why i even try. i don't have the looks. i don't have the personality. i am just useless. i'm sorry you're reading this. i'm sorry i keep apologizing. i always do this and people get mad at me for it. how do i have friends. are they even my friends. i'm so pathetic. i hate this. i hate this. i hate this so much.
i wish it could stop. but it won't.
i'm sorry.