Part Two
Nasa tambayan kami ngayon kasama ang mga kaibigan namin noong high school. Well, this is some sort of reunion.
"Congrats, Feb!"
I smiled as my response to Desiree, one of my friends in high school.
I've been hearing that congratulation every now and then. Kaya nakakapagod rin magsalita kahit thank you lang.
"Tahimik natin, a."
That was not a question yet I'm oblige to answer.
"Wala. May iniisip lang..."
I don't know what I am thinking right now. I just feel uneasy and uncomfortable. Parang may kulang na kahit ako ay hindi ko alam kong ano.
"Aren't you happy? You've been wishing this to happen..."
I looked at Desiree's face. Kaya nga, e. Nakakalitong isipin. This is just too good to be true. Ngumiti ako sa kanya.
"Ngumingiti ka nga pero iyang mga mata mo parang umiiyak sa lungkot."
Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagtaas ng kilay ko sa sinabi niya habang tinuturo ang mga mata ko. I looked away. She really can read me.
Tiningnan ko si Chloe na nakipagkwentuhan sa mga kaklase namin noon. She seems enjoying the small talk. I also saw Marichu in the corner of the table with some other guys in our class. I missed talking with them too but I'm not really in the mood today.
"May problema ba?"
May problema nga ba?
"I don't know, pero parang may kulang..."
"You missed him?"
I don't know who is she pertaining to. It makes me more confused. Is it my dad or my...
"I mean your ex..."
Inirapan ko siya. Sabi na nga ba.
How many times do I have to tell them na naka move on na ako.
I mean yes, he's not that easy to forget of course he's my first love but I... I moved on.
"No. I miss dad."
At tuluyan nang tumulo ang luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan. I wish dad's here with us celebrating my success.
Kahit nakapasok lang sa banda ay sobrang malaking bagay na para sa kanya. Of course, aside from the fact that I am his one and only princess, pinapangarap niya rin ito para sa akin. But sadly, he chose to leave us.
Six years had passed when dad was diagnosed of having a throat cancer. He was then a vocalist of a rock band. My dad was also a chain smoker so he was into a long process of medication. Pero, he was too weak. Kaya hindi nakayanan ng katawan niya ang mga tini take niyang gamot. So, he gave up.
That time was my greatest downfall. Para akong nawalan ng pag asang mabuhay pa. I even chose to bury my passion in music too. Kasi tingin ko ang pagkanta at pagtugtog ng tatay ko ay ang dahilan ng maaga niyang pagkawala sa buhay namin. That's because of that rock band, he never had a time to check his health and that made him sick.
Hindi ko na namalayan na humahagulhol na pala ako. I am still living in the past. Hanggang ngayon kasi hindi ko pa matanggap tanggap ang nangyayari sa pamilya namin.
Since then, si mama na ang palaging masusunod. I have no right to oppose. She will always decide for me.
"What happened?"
Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na napalibutan na pala nila ako. Ang mga kaibigan kong babae ay kanya kanyang paypay sa akin. While the boys are panicking, they are still able to hand me a glass of water.
I burst out laughing in between my wail of anguish. Kasi naman para silang nakidlatan sa pag alala sa akin. Kanina lang busy sila sa pagkukwentuhan, ngayon naman ay nagpapanic kung paano ba ako aluin.
