The Art of Letting Go

Chapter Four

Bakit kaya sa dinami dami ng mga lalake sa mundo , sa mga mali pa ako lagi naiinlove ? It hurts . It really does . The pain is indescribable .

Nagstay kame sa may likod ng train station buong afternoon at bigla niyang plinay yung song na dinedicate niya for me dati . . . I DON'T WANNA MISS A THING .

While the song was playing , all of our memories flashed back on my mind . Shoot . Then a tear started falling and got followed by another , then another , then another and just stopped when we parted ways .

Sinabi ko sakanya that he could leave if he wants to . Di naman siya obliged to stay eh . Kaya ko toh . Kung nakaya ko dati , imposible namang di ko kaya ngayon .

It's time for us to part . Tumayo ako and sinabi ko na kelangan ko ng umalis . Nagsorry at nagthank you ako sakaniya . Sinabi niya , ihahatid niya ko so , I told him to not bother but he insisted . While we were walking and climbing up the stairs , he stopped me and was trying to hand me the dog tag I gave him . That dog tag had my name on it and his on mine .

That really hurt . Alot . I didn't want to take it because that was from me and that would mean na walang wala na talaga . So it's really the end ?

Sa sobrang saket , mas pinili ko nalang mag walk out . He held my hand and I let go . I didn't bother looking back because I don't want to see how he was for the last time . I ran . I ran without even knowing where I was headed . I just wanted to be away . I just want to forget . I wanted another start but I didn't know where and how . I'm feeling it again . That empty feeling I've always felt when someone leaves me . I didn't know what to do . . I just , I just wanted my kuya with me so I called him .

Me : Kuya , pwede ma pumunta dito ?

Kuya : Is everything alright ? Where are you ? Pupunta nako diyan agad .

Eto ang kuya ko . Hindi lang gwapo , talented at matalino . MABAET pa .