The Art of Letting Go

Chapter One

June 25, 2013 , 7:30 a.m.

Siguro sa lahat ng tao sa buong mundo , ako na ang pinaka swerte . What else could I ask for ? I have been given the best people in the world . I love and I am loved . I take care of people and I am taken care of . Lahat ng meron ako ngayon ay blessings .

*drinnnnnnnnn*

Nako 7:30 na pala . I should better get up and prepare myself for school . Susunduin ako ni Jayvie ng 8:30 , ayaw ko naman siyang paghintayin . Naging routine na namin ang pag sundo niya saken every morning but today's a special day . Monthsary kasi namin eh . One month na kame and I really didn't expect that we would last a month . Mahal na mahal ko siya . I want him to be my last . I want to spend my life with him for a lifetime . Everyone likes him . Dad , mom and kuya . Napakilala ko na din siya kay lolo and lola . It's kinda weird actually . They never really liked my exes but oh well . Maybe they see what I see in him .

An hour later . . .

Jayvie : Manang , asan po si Chesca ?

Manang : Wait lang ha Jayvie ? Tatawagin ko lang si Chesca .

Me : Manang , it's fine . I'm coming . Babeeeeee ! Happy forst monthsary to us ! :) <3

Jayvie : Chesca , can we talk ?

Bakit ganun ? Why isn't he happy ? Monthsary namin and iba ang mood na ineexpect ko from him . . Something is not right . I feel like something bad's going to happen . . .

Me : Before you start , gusto ko ako muna , please ?

Jayvie : Go ahead .

Me : Sorry but I have to read it . I've written it at midnight . I wanted it to be written exactly on the day of our first monthsary so . . . Here I go :

"Dearest Babe ,

Happy first monthsary to us ! I've never expected to have someone so much near to perfect in my life . Someone who gave me so many reasons to open my heart again and just take away all the pain from the past . You are my love , my kryptonite , my superman , my man , my bestfriend , my everything . I want you to be my last . Mahal na mahal kita . Kung di ko man yun mapakita palagi , sorry ha ? Kung di man ako yung perfect na girlfriend or somewhere near perfect , sorry . Ang alam ko lang , mahal na mahal na mahal kita and I would want to fight for this . For US . For you . Babe , I am ready to face every single problem with you . Alam ko kaya natin ito . Kaya natin lahat dahil mahal natin isa't isa . Do you remember our promise ? Yung walang iwanan ? Hinding hindi kita iiwan Bhe . Sobra kase kitang mahal . Thank you kase andyan ka . Thank you for choosing me . I am very lucky to have you Bhe . Happy first monthsary . Di ko man mabigay sayo lahat ng gusto mo , gagawin ko ang lahat para gawin ang makakaya ko para sayo . Iloveyou .

Love ,

Chesca "

Jayvie : Chesca , I don't know where and how to start .

Bat bigla siyang napaiyak ? Tears of joy kaya to dahil sa letter ko for him ?

Jayvie : You are the sweetest and kindest person in the world . Ikaw yung pinaka down to earth na taong kilala ko . Yung mas pipiliin na masakatan ang sarili para di lang masaktan yung iba para di lang makitang nasasaktan ang iba . I have to apologize to you . What I'm about to say is really hard but , I have to . Chesca , I'm sorry but I'm breaking up with you . It's just that . . . I don't want to continue this relationship if I'm confused with what I feel . I hope you understand . "

Parang guguho ang mundo ko . Am I dreaming ? Nightmare lang ba 'to ? I don't know what to do . I just . . .

Me : I don't know where I went wrong . The only thing I know is that I really tried to do everything I could . Kulang ba or sobra ? I hope you're happy . I'm letting you go because I know that you're not happy with me anymore . That would be so selfish of me if pipilitin kitang mag stay . . . Sana lang masaya ka . I hope you find the right girl . I wish you all the best . There's no point in staying anymore . . .So just leave . Please . So that it wouldn't hurt me more . "