Dolan twin imagines/preferences

Letters to him-G

Feb 3 2:35am
I wrote you countless letters in my head because I couldn't put my emotions on paper. Too bad you'll never get to read them...

May 16 10:23 pm
And they asked me,
"Does this song remind you of him?"
I just laughed because...
Well....
Everything does.

August 17 1:58am
If I could go back in time, before you broke me in half. I would run, literally run to your house. Knock on your door, and when you opened it... I would look at you, in shock that you are actually standing in front of me....but I would hug you. I would hug you and kiss you and tell you how much I loved you one last time. The last time I would ever tell you I loved you, before you left me, You and I died. You become nothing to me. And that's so painful to think about but it's true. I miss you everyday, every hour, every minute, every second of every day I miss you. I hope you never know that.

I dropped my pen, I couldn't write anymore. It had been almost a year since he left. I missed him more then anything. I felt like he forgot about me. And I would understand if he did, I regret every stupid, meaningless, hot headed thing I said to him that night before he left. He left the next morning without even saying good buy...

Flash back

"Moving..." I said turning away from him.

"We have to y/n! You know everything happens out there! It will be great for Ethan and I!" He said, I could feel him sliming behind me, and I was happy for him, I just wish I could go with.

"For you and Ethan" I said turning around and crossing my arms. Did he really just say that like he didn't give a shit about us?

"No, y/n. You know I love you. But this is big! We are gunna go on an international tour and get to meet all our fans!" He said rubbing my arms.

"And where do I fit into this?" I said cocking my head to the side with attitude.

He frowned and back away from me.

"I....I guess I haven't thought about it. You've always be with me. I guess I just figured you always would be" he said looking down at his white converse.

"I'm not just gunna sit here and wait for you go get back every week or month or however long your fucking gone. I love you Grayson but I wanna be apart of this too" I said getting teary eyed.

"I don't think you can be" he said looking up. My heart dropped. Is he really doing this right now?

"Grayson...I don't wanna lose you" I said walking towards him.

"Well, I won't be able to visit that often." He said coldly. What does that mean?

"What are you saying?" I said walking towards him even more,
But he backed away.

"Y/n, I love you. But I need to do what's best for me and Ethan" he said walking towards the door.

"So that's it then! Your just gunna walk out on everything that we have? Fine! Don't ever talk to me again!" I yelled at him as he turned the door nob.

I turned my back to him and went into the kitchen. I heard him hesitate, but walk out the door and close it behind him. I instantly burst into tears. I felt so stupid for saying that. I didn't want to lose him! I walked to my front door and slowly turned the nob, wondering if he was still out there. I opened it quick and looked outside. It was dark and cold, like my heart when I didn't see Grayson's car in my drive way anymore. I assumed he left as quick as he could.