When I wake up... You will be here

Chapter 36

Danger -part 1-

Harry’s P.O.V.

Emma climbed out of the car, slamming the door behind her. I sighed. I took Ariel in my arms and went out of the car. I entered the building and walked towards the elevator where Emma was waiting for me. Emma was staring at the silver walls of the elevator and her arms crossed over her chest. I pressed the button of our floor and the elevator doors closed.

Emma didn’t even look at me when we entered the apartment. I went upstairs and entered to our room. I gently put Ariel in her crib and shut the door behind me. I knew Emma was angry with me. I ran a hand through my hair, trying to think clearly. I still had my mind clouded by the anger and jealousy of an hour ago. I closed my eyes tightly and clenched my fists so hard that my knuckles turned white. I let out the air from my lungs, trying to control all the feelings that tried to blind me.

I went downstairs with my fists still closed. I was breathing heavily; trying to control my impulses to destroy all that was on my way. I went into the kitchen and saw Emma mixing milk, eggs and flour. I could see that she was as angry as me. She was moving the spoon hardly, venting her anger on the cake mix.

“What are you doing?” I asked in a whisper.

“Dessert for tomorrow. You invited the guys to dinner, remember?” She said dryly.

We were both stayed in silent. She didn’t even look at me. She was just walking around the kitchen ignoring me while doing dinner. She bit her lower lip hardly and I breathed deeply to calm down.

“Emma… I’m sorry, okay?” I said letting out the air I was holding.

“Are you really sorry? Harry, you took me by the arm and dragged me out of the house because I was talking to Trevor.” She said leaving on the table what she was making and looking at me.

“And you know his name?” I said. Jealousy and bile mixing in my throat.

“Well, when you meet someone you say your name and he also goes to college with me.” She said, in that tone that made me feel like a kid punished or like the worst person in the world.

Does perverted idiot goes to college with Emma? More anger boiled in my veins. That idiot looked at Emma every day. And I was sure he flirted with her like this every day. I'd have to give him a couple of punches to teach him that he can’t go around taking away what's mine.

“You know I do not like when you talk to me in that tone.” I hissed

“You know I do not like when you make your jealousy scenes in front of everyone.”

“He was all over you!” I screamed. I knew we'd end up yelling and probably Emma will sleep in the guest room so she can’t see me in the night.

“We were just talking!” She screamed back.

“Emma, he was flirting with you shamelessly in front of me!”

“Well, someone was all over you ten months ago and I didn’t scream at you for that!

We were both reminded in silent. Emma looked away down to her hands. The air escaped from my lungs. That felt like a slap, a hard slap in the face... I watched as a lonely tear slid down her cheek and she quickly wiped it away. She pursed her lips and closed her eyes. I loosened my fists. Emma let out a shaky breath and returned to what she was doing.

 “Emma…”

“Harry… Just… Just leave it like that, okay?”

The moonlight was coming through the window. I was curled up on Emma’s pillow. The bed felt so empty without her. I couldn’t sleep, could not sleep without her. I needed her with me. I watch the clock and it marked one o'clock. I bit my lower lip and closed my eyes trying to get some sleep. My conscience wouldn’t let me. I knew I had been wrong and if I don’t talk to Emma I won’t be calm.

I got out of bed and walked barefoot down the hall to the guest room. I opened the door trying not to make noise. Emma was giving me her back and I could see the sheets moving because of her soft breathing. I walked on tiptoe to the bed.

“Emma… Are you awake?” I whispered.

She turned around and looked at me.

“What's the matter Harry?”

I said nothing. I just got into bed and snuggled against her. Emma put her arms around me. I buried my face in her neck. She started stroking my hair. We stayed like that for a long time without saying anything. I closed my eyes tightly and took a deep breath. Her warm body enveloping me. I stroked the bare skin of her back that showed off her shirt.

“Sorry for dragging you out of the house.” I whispered.

“It’s okay… Sorry for saying that.” I mumble.

“You are right…”

“No Harry. We bothagreed not to talk about it anymore and I use it against you.”

I winced. I didn’t want to talk about this. Now I just want to sleep, sleep with Emma. In her arms, where I felt safe. She kissed my cheeks, my forehead, my eyelids, my chin, giving a kiss on my lips at the end.

“Can we talk about this tomorrow?”

“Yeah, sure.”

Just now I haven’t the strength to speak again of Ariel. I don’t want to feel worse and I don’t to change Emma’s mind and don’t want her to go away. I closed my eyes and tried to banish all the thoughts ... I will take care of that tomorrow...