Hurt Me Further

Beautiful Boy

In the mirror

I see a face

Not my face

This one's disgrace

With softest skin

And features sweet

Big brown eyes

And rosy cheeks

This face I hate

Envied by some

Can't describe

I come undone

My biggest burden 

On my chest

Skin tight black

Which binds my breath

My lungs collapse

My ribs will snap

My hateful thoughts 

Are falling back

The scissors snip

Away my hair

Gently it falls

Soft and fair

I scream my name

Yes, my name, that's me

Let me choose 

Who I will be

I am a boy

But I am not

What makes a man?

What makes me not?

I love the boy

I've never been 

Yet that's the boy

I know I am

Don't hold me down

Mother you have

You've always hated 

What I am

If I could chose 

I'd play it safe

You think I like

This stabbing pain?

Let me love

Myself for once

Please accept me

As your son

I choose my name

That name is mine

I know you don't agree

But why?

I know this change 

Is big for you

I must make change

Where change is due

This is my choice

Let this one be

Don't steal this choice

Away from me

Mother please

I'm begging you

Let go of 

The girl you knew

She's not here

But I'm the same

Your little boy

Is not to blame

I suppose it's time

That I should go

The daughter she loved

The son she won't