Hurt Me Further

Your God

Little girl, huddled alone

Looking for somewhere to call home

Cuz how can home be screaming and fear

A broken place filled with the sound of mommy's tears

She prayed to the God above

The one filled with undying love

"God, please make daddy stay.

Me and brother will behave

Please make all the yelling stop

Neighbors had to call the cops

I wanna see mommy smile again.

In God's name. Amen"

She tucked her brother into bed

Crawled in and kissed his head

Same little girl, new lonely place

Brand new problems she has to face

The kids at school are always just so cruel

Make fun of her clothes and face, call her fool

She can't fit in and their words sting

Saying she'll grow old and be nothing

Once again she prays for change

So tomorrow she won't be strange

"Dear God, please help me now

I wanna be with the cool crowd

They're so mean and I have no friends

I just want to laugh again

So Mr. Jesus if you have the time

Could I have a better life?"

And she wiped her eyes and walked to class

Maybe this time it won't be as bad

Little girl, not so small

Realizing the truth in it all

Stepfather never had the right

To touch her in the night

It wasn't love, but a power trip

That bastard was full of shit

"It'd kill your mom if she found out"

"Tell anyone I'll blow your brains out"

The horrid threats kept her on the bed

Couldn't scream that's what he said

She bit her lips and prayed again.

"Dear God, it hurts so much

he's making me his little slut.

I'm sorry for all my sins

Help me fight this, help me win.

My heart is racing, make it stop.

Throw him off me, please, oh God.

I know you have that power.

Free me in this hour.

Save me in Your name."

And to her mind returned the shame.

She took the force he put on her

Somehow she had faith in her Lord

This little girl, still alive
But death was plainly in her eyes
She saw that all she knew were lies
In a poem she wrote quite clear
The reasoning for all her tears
"Dearest God, now I see
That you were never there for me
I had my faith and it was strong
But you were nothing all along
How foolish it was of me
To believe in a fever dream
You can't protect this world from sin
The criminals will always win
You ruled my thoughts but now you're done
And look at what I've become
Its thanks to you, religious lies
You're the devil in my fight
You sat and watched me as I bled
And cruel words filled my head
You're nothing now, I don't believe
You're a lie, now this I see"
Little girl, at last she's free
This is what your God did to me