Hurt Me Further

At Midnight

9 pm I'm off to bed

To fight the demons in my head

And shed the tears i cant contain

Behind locked doors to show the pain

10 o'clock I wonder why

I was given this lonely life

Staring in my mirror again

Wanting to look like my friend

11 at night, I should l sleep

But I'm counting scars instead of sheep

Tracing patterns on my thighs

And thinking where to cut this time

At midnight blood dries on my wrists

Giving into the painful bliss

Sneak into the kitchen for pills

Little white ones, there's pain to kill

1 am I lay alone

Wondering if I'll ever have a home

A broken one's all I got

A little better"s all I want

2 in the morning to call you, my love

And tell you bout the things I've done

It's been a rough night, but the same as the rest

Still you drive over and crawl into my bed

3 so early, I feel your warmth

And wonder if you feel my hurt

Do I pain you when I scream?

Do you want a different me?

4 o' clock I finally rest

Nightmares and memories put me to the test

I toss and turn and awake in your arms

I'm sorry if I've done you harm

5 am please wipe my tears

Shield me from all my greatest fears

Because even when I lie to you

I want you to carry me from the hell I knew