Forever - Book 1 *Complete*

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

 Kai's lips met mine and my face suddenly felt hot just like it had the last time he kissed me, My heart thumped in my chest as his soft skin touched mine after a while he pulled away blushing himself and rubbed the back of his neck.

"I think that's what loving someone feels like." Kai whispered blushing as he looked away and continued to rub the back of his neck.  I sat there staring at him with shock and I didn't know what to say. If what Kai said were true that would mean I was in love with Kai. I hated myself for it as well. But eventually I thought of something to say.

"Kai... do you love me?" I asked blushing myself as I looked down at my left pigtail that was hanging over my shoulder and began to play with it nervously. Kai looked at me still blushing then looked away again.

"I think so..." Kai replied. "But I don't know." He added.

"Maybe ask Haruki and Yuna about it?" I suggested quietly.

"Yeah, I kinda wish none of this coma stuff happened 'cause then I'd get to be around you more, I've started to remember a lot of stuff, one thing I remember the most was my last thought before I was put in the coma I was thinking to myself as long as I protected her I wouldn't care if I died, but then.... I heard you crying and felt you shaking me gently but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't reply or move my vision was alright for a while before everything went black and my regret was that maybe, I didn't protect you well enough.... That's all I cared about back then.... That's all I still care about now, making sure you're safe." Kai explained, I felt tears coming to my eyes but I didn't wanna cry again and I wouldn't cry no matter how bad the pain of that memory hurt.

"Kai, can we make a promise? Just like we used to when we were kids?" I asked. Kai nodded.

"What kind of promise?" he asked.

"A pinkie promise." I said.

"Sure." Kai replied, raising his hand and leaving his pinkie up.

"Can you promise that you will never leave me again? And that you'll always care about me no matter what?" I asked. Kai looped his pinkie around mine and nodded with a smile.

"I promise." He replied.

"Now what do you want me to promise?" I asked.

"You want me to make you promise something?" Kai questioned just to make sure he heard right.

"Yep." I replied with one nod.

"Okay, well, I want you to promise me that you will never stop caring about people and that even if I did leave you, you'd move on and be happy with your life." Kai said. I gaped at him with sad eyes and slowly lowered my pinkie and placed my hand in my lap.

"W-What do you mean? Is something going to happen? Will you die?" I asked with fear in my tone.

"I've been meaning to tell you but I never found the right time... They said that I might not live much longer, they said my brain has weakened and if it decides to stop it'll just shut off everything and I'll die..." Kai replied, his voice strained with pain. Tears suddenly escaped my eyes; I closed them and then began yelling at Kai.

"No Kai you promised! You promised you'd never leave me alone again! You've always promised me that and now you're just gonna break a lifelong promise?  How could you do that?" I exclaimed, I knew I was being unreasonable but I couldn't help it, my chest was hurting and the tears didn't wanna stop escaping my eyes. "If you're going to die, I don't see why I should stay here." I added before climbing to my feet and slowly walking towards the kitchen, Kai watched me with confusion and fear but soon jumped to his feet and followed me. I pulled the draw open and took out a knife; Kai snatched it off of me and pushed me against the cupboard with his free hand.