Today marks two moths, two months that you have been gone. Two long agonizing months. Two months of saddens and very little moments of joy. 62 day since I've seen your face since I've heard your voice since I've seen your smile, man your smile sure could light up a room. Not a minute not a second not even a millisecond goes by with out you on my mind. Your in my mind all day every day. I wake up everyday wishing you were here wishing God didn't call you home so soon. I look up at the sky everyday and still ask why? Why did you have to take her beautiful soul? I still wish we could have talked about something other than brushing our teeth that morning but at least we got to talk. At least we got to say one last word to each other. Every time I walk up the stair flash backs of every time you fell every time we laughed on throughs stairs. I walk out side and I remember my birthday fail but then you turned into a party with all of our friend we played hide and go seek and u and Your friend hid in the little wooded area in the front yard. Every where I look I see a memory, a memory of us a memory of doing something stupid or something funny. Every time I look back I see ur smile I see ur beautiful eyes the smile that could light up a room. It's been hard these last three months with it you. Waking up knowing that my first friend my only true friend my best friend but most of all my Sister won't be home won't be able to cheer me on or tell me anything. You were the only one I could trust the only one that new all my secrets. Your the one that was there through it all that stud by my side no Matter what you stuck up for me even when you didn't want to. Your my ride or die I know you will always be by my side no matter what no matter if your in heaven or down on earth. I still hold a piece of my heart that is missing and It always will be. God took part of me with you when he called you home I will never forget that day I will never gorget from the begging to the end of that day. The minute I found out was he minute I wished it wasn't true. Wishing and praying won't bring you back and I know that but at least I can try. I try each and everyday to see all the little sighs that you send me. The little things mean the most to me. I find the things that I gave you long ago surprised that you've kept them surprised that you kept the things that I've given you it truly means a lot to know that you kept them that the little things actually meant something to you. I love you so much bug, you will never ever be forgotten rest in peace baby girl love you for ever and always. 9-25-99/12-10-15
