You never realize how much it hurts until you do something you once use to do together. You never realize how much of your heart and soul is missing until you do what you once use to do together. When reality hits, it hits very hard. The reality that you are really gone, the reality that I will never get to see your face again. The realization that you will never walk through the doors again or see another sunny day. The realization that I will never hear your voice or see your smile again hits me over and over. You see, you use to walk into a room and put smiles on everyone's face but yet now you're the one putting frowns upon their faces. You're the one that made my day. They tell you everything is going to be okay, and that the pain will slowly fade. Some people that have never felt the pain befor may believe this, but the ones, the ones that feel the pain of losing a loved one that they held so closely to their heart say that it is impossible to get over what they have lost. There is not enough time in the world to heal what has been broke not even in a million years. Every step you take every breath of air that you take in some way shape or form reminds you, reminds you of every little moment every little memorie you did with that person. Every time you walk past a spot that you once use to play, you once held a conversation brings back memories, memories of you and her together memories fill your mind bringing tears to your eyes. You stop, you stop and stare at that specific area knowing you and that person once talked there once played there but most of all shared a memory there. You shared a moment of your life there. A moment you will never get back, a moment that you will look back on for the rest of your life the moment that will take you back into time. A moment in which you stop and stare, staring off into distance and remembering all the little things you did together. Remembering all the time you cried together all the times you laughed together but most of all the days that you had fun the days that the sun was bright and the days were long and all you could do was smile. Standing there with a big grin on your face and a single tear rolling down your check. Every little thing running thru your head. Then It hits you again, reality hits you again. The fact the they are not on Earth any more the fact that they will never see another shining sun that they are gone. Gone forever. Gone just gone never ever going to see them again never going to touch them never going to share another memory with them. They are just fine and will never come back.
