Its been exactly 6 months today. Six months since i lost my bestfriend. Six moths since my sister got taken away from me. They tell you its suppose to get easier but in reality it Doesn't. The days are getting warmer but my hearts getting colder. Its the silly things that remind me most about you. From mowing the lawn to just plating flowers. I miss the days that we would fight over who mows. I miss sitting outside and planting flowers with you. we were so excited to go camping together, but now we cant. The last six months i haven't felt whole i haven't felt my self. I try over and over to let go of the pain and hatred i have. But its not going away it's only getting stronger. I was suppose to try out for the cheer team with you but now i cant. I just miss you. I miss seeing your face everyday. I miss your laugh i miss telling grandma we are not hungry because we want to swim longer than getting out starving. Were suppose to do so much together but now we cant. We cant do anything else together. I just want you back. I want your smile. I want you to come home and this all just be a dream. I hope you like it up in heaven rest easy baby girl
