RENESMEE'S P.O.V
I feel beyond freezing. Like every inch of my skin has been smothered in liquid nitrogen. If it isn't for Jake's warm body pressed against mine I am pretty sure I will be an ice cube by now.
My brain feels solid, the only thing I can think of is Jacob.
Its unhealthy.
As much as I am against Jacob being near me,
1, I am at a temperature unbearably cold.
2, as much as I hate him for breaking up with me, I still love him.
"P...put me d-down" I whisper to Jake who has just reached the car.
"Renesmee, I'm not letting go of you-my heart wont let that happen."
"I-I need to d...drive home" I'm not even 100 percent sure what is coming out of my lips, but I can't care less, my mind isn't processing what I'm saying before I even say it.
"Nonsense, I'm driving." Jacob protests.
"How are y-you not cold?" Jake's heat is starting to unfreeze my blood.
"Im warm blooded remember?" I could hear the smirk in his voice, but I don't open my eyes. My eyelids are too heavy.
"Right, Ness, you're gonna have to hold onto me while I drive, ok?" His voice started regular but eventually turned to a whisper.
That was the last thing I heard before I gave over to my sleepy desires.
*******
Where am I?
I try to comprehend where I am.
I hear my family's unnecessary breathing,
Quiet pacing in the far end of the room,
The Beeping of a medical machine.
Am I dead?
"She's OK Edward, just sleeping" grandpa says.
I can hear grandpa. I can hear his soft friendly voice, I can hear daddy's sad sigh when Carlisle answers his unspoken question.
So I am alive.
My suicide plan didn't work.
I have to keep living this depressing life that tortures me for days on end.
"Suicide plan?" Daddy's voice gasps.
I try to open my eyes but they feel glued together.
"Can you hear her Edward?" Alice asks?
"Suicide plan" he mutters again. "That's why Jacob found you by the cliffs?" His sad and shocked voice asks me.
'Yes daddy, you have to understand that it hurts. It physically hurts my whole body when I'm not with Jacob. I cannot live without him.'
I say to him through my mind.
If my eyes won't work, I doubt my voice will.
"Oh, Renesmee," daddy whispers in a silk soft voice.
'I still love him daddy'
that is 100 percent true.
"Ness? Can you hear me?" Someone's shadow covers the bright light on my face, dimming the light casting through my eyelid.
I mentally ask daddy to tell Carlisle 'yes' and he does.
"Great, can you open your eyes honey?" Carlisle asks.
I tried to push them open with great strength and eventually my eyes burst open.
I take a look at my surroundings.
We must be in Carlisle's office.
Grandpa is above my face with a warm but sad smile,
daddy sitting on a chair next to my hospital bed with momma standing behind him with a hand on his shoulder.
