Idiots, Assholes, Jerks, Lovers.

Chapter 6?

I haven't updated have I? Sorry about that.

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So I went to the park today with a couple of friends and he was there...It didn't go well..

We were there and I won't say what we did. Just talked about things to be honest. When I went home I gave a friend of mine permission to tell him I liked him. This is what happened:

Friend: I told him

Me: Ok. What did he say?

Friend: He said your annoying

I stopped in my tracks. Tears started rolling down my face.

Me: Okay then.

Friend: You okay?

Me: Yeah.

Friend: Are you sure? You sound like your hiding it.

Me: Yeah. I'm fine.

Walking home I thought about it. I cried.

I even texted my friend. The female one. I didn't get a reply except for this.

Her: Your ass is irritating.

I also stopped then. She was my best female friend! Why is this happening? Did I anger a god? I'm always there helping my friends and the one time I need them, they aren't helping!

I went home and sobbed in the shower. I wanted to let any tears I had fall down the drain. They kept coming. I was all alone to myself. Does anybody care if I live or die?

No, I'm going to become suicidal! Not over a guy who doesn't deserve me! I'm stronger than this! So i got out of the shower and was on my couch/bed. When the male friend started texting me, I had a headache from crying so much. So I told him that I had a headache and couldn't talk right now. He let me nap. A sweet dreamless nap.

I woke up and my friend started texting me. He was great. Like the brother I never had. And I felt better. He told me that he and another friend started yelling at him when the thir just sat there. When he went to sleep, I started writing this. Its my way of getting it off my chest. It still hurts though...

But you know what hurts the most? Have only one friend who is helping you when you help the others with their problems. I guess I know who to trust with that stuff. I could thank him repeatedley