IM NOT A HUMAN (Fourth Art Book)

*Throws Notebook Down*

Ugh
I give up
I try all day and night to please myself and drown my worries and depressions in art
But now even my art is slipping out of my reach
The joy I once had in drawing is leaving me
But I feel like everyone is pressuring me into it
My mom is already telling me I can make a living in art
But I don't want to
I try to draw dragons and animals
But now it's been about two days since I've drawn anything decent
I tried to draw a human without a reference, and it worked.... But that was on Friday.
Now it's the end of Sunday.
And I haven't even looked in my sketchbook
Art isn't what I want to do
It's what I feel like I'm forced to do now
All I wan to do is sit down, listen to music, sing, and maybe learn to play the spare guitar we have in our house....
But I'm too shy to sing in front of everyone so I wait until everyone is gone
But that is never
So I'm stuck with a pencil being shoved into one hand and a piece of paper in the other
Why is my iPad full of so many drawing apps?
I used to be so confident in art
But now it just doesn't sound as appealing
It's losing its light
I don't even see the use of being on Wattpad anymore
I will probably stay anyways...
But I don't even know
If you know me IRL plz don't talk about this
It's too... Just... Not
So maybe I should just stop
Finish the art trades and favors I need to do
And then stop