Need A Light

i ask You

for some people, the rain was the most romantic moment,
the moment where you get as a couple,
but according to me
the rain is the time where i wanted to ask You

rain, gloomy, storm
makes me so close to You
that's why i want to ask You

why You created me,
why i am still alive today.

i tried to remember what You told me
before You blew me the breath of life

what i will be,
when i die,

but
i can never remember

i wish i knew how cruel the world
then...
i would refuse to be born into the world
probably, maybe

in fact i am still alive until this moment,

so, what to do?
i ask You