Our love is only as strong as each other.

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My brain was jammed pack full of constant thoughts. They swirled working me constantly changing. It hurt my head. It made it impossible to focus on anything. I needed relief. I prayed to no in particular for the ability to stop being so restless.

Of course no one came to my rescue and I heaved myself out of bed. My muscles still screamed at me and everything was slow going but better. I walked gently down the hall to the kitchen. I sat at the table and stared at the wall. Again the thoughts poured into my head and made me want to cry. My breath shook as I tried to control myself.

Dean and Sam had been on a hunt for days now. Crowley popped in to see how I was along with Gabe and Cas. I appreciated their efforts but I really was enjoying the alone time. I stood again and quickly made a bowl of cereal.

I carried the chipped bowl into my room where I booted up my laptop. I slowly ate while checking several email accounts. Nothing interesting. I replied to the ones I had to and ignored the spam.

"Hey." Gabes voice traveled to my ears. I jumped and looked up from the screen. He smiled before settling on my bed beside me. He was busy reading the email that was currently on my screen.

"How have you been." He whispered. I was frozen as my heart had not returned to normal pace yet.

"Aww okay I guess." I muttered back. I closed out of the email and started to do pull up Facebook.

"Don't fucking lie to me. I heard you prayer." He growled. I turned with surprise.

"I didn't say your name though." I choked out. He sighed.

"We have been through this. If you think hard enough then the prayer is heard by the person you are thinking about." He said. I shrugged and tried not to think about that to hard. Gabe has been on my mind for days now.

"Have you heard anything from the boys. They haven't called and I am getting worried." I asked. My eyes were scanning my old life. My Facebook was filled with people from before my Hunting days.

"Umm they are fine. I think. Anyway you are avoiding the subject." Gabe said. Annoyance had started to trickle into his voice. I shut the computer carefully and set it on the floor.

"Okay. How about this. Five minutes of complete focus and pure honesty with no avoiding." I said. We did this often. It helped us communicate when we were either pissed or depressed. Gabriel nodded.

"Why do you want me to turn off your mind." His words struck me hard. I expected them and yet I was hoping he wouldn't ask.

" I was hoping you wouldn't ask that. I umm was having a moment of weakness. My brain won't relax. It's like trying to follow the thoughts of someone with multiple personalities. And all the personalities are talking at once." I whispered. My voice cracking as I fought back tears. Several deep breaths later his next question fell out of his mouth.

"Why did your prayer come to me?" He asked. This one with more confidence. My eyes fell to my sheet where I fiddled with the soft fabric.

"You are always the one consistent thought. The one I want to please." I muttered rather quickly. I know he heard because of the way he stopped breathing.

"Oh Lex. Come here." He said. I looked up and his arms were out stretched. I fell into his grasp happily. He held me to his chest. I listened to his heart and felt his heat surround me.

"I am sorry Gabe." I whispered. He shook his head and squeezed a little tighter.

"You have absolutely nothing to apologize for. It's okay." He muttered into my hair. I took one more second to memorize as much about his hold as I could before I pulled away.

"Are you sure the boys are okay?" I asked. I looked at the clock. I had thirty second before he could lie to me.

"I think they are. Cas hasn't checked in with me in a couple hours. Relax. They are trained hunters." He said with a slight laugh. I nodded thinking it over.

"Stop over thinking it." Gabe warned. My eyes widened as I met his gaze.

"Stay out of my head." I replied back just as sassily as he could. He raised his hands in surrender. A small laugh escaped his tightly woven lips.

We both broke down in fits of laughter. I could feel my abs coming in.

"Okay stop stop. Everything hurts." I said between laughs. Gabes eyes met mine and I could see pity and anger.

"Oh hell no. You are not allowed to look at me like that. You look at me like I am healing and getting better. Because I am." The last part was more for me then for him.

"Gabe are you here." A blue eyed angel called down the hallway. We both jumped up and raced to the door.

"Cas. Are they okay?" I asked frantically. Cas looked taken a back for a second.

"Gabe. Glad to see you here. You were ignoring my messages. Lex Dean and Sam are fine. They are on their way home." He said. My eye brows stitched together.

"And those assholes didn't call. Oh they are in fucking trouble. You can't leave me here on my own and NOT FUCKING CALL ME WHEN YOU ARE DONE AND SAFE." I slowly started yelling. Gabe started rubbing my back and muttering small thing in my ear about calming down. I took deep breaths starting to relax with his touch.

"I think they forgot. Sam got hurt. He needed stitches." Cas said. My eyes snapped to his and Gabe cursed under his breath.

"S-Sam got hurt. H-He needed stitches." I repeated stuttering. My heart jumped and I went blank. Fear took over.

"He is fine. He will heal nicely. I have jump started the healing and he is in no pain." Cas said. Gabe grabbed my arm pulling me through. I turned to him and saw some hurt.

"Sorry. I was worried. Wasn't what I was expecting. I I I don't have and answer." I tried to explain. Gabes gaze softened.

"We are going out tonight. How about for ice cream." Gabe asked. I thought about it. I haven't been out of this bunker for weeks. I nodded excitedly. Cas's eyes flicked between us before he disappeared. I blinked where he once was.

"You know. Flying in and out of places like that makes me nauseous." I muttered. Gabe laughed.

"Too bad. That's our mode of travel tonight." He whispered in my ear. I shivered more excited then I thought I could be.