Some Secrets Hurt.

chapter 12.

Elliots POV

I stood there in the middle of the trees, I knew who ever it was, was still here because the genius didn’t turn their phone off-

*Click.*

The all too familiar sound of a guns safety being clicked off made me freeze.  Never turn your back on the enemy! I scolded myself. 

Slowly, I turned around to see my attacker.

I felt my eyes widen and heard my breath leave my in a huff as I took a look at the person.

Red wavy hair pulled back into a pony tail, glowing blue-gold eyes.  That figure I knew so well,

“Izabell.” I breathed, her face was as expressionless like a piece of paper and to be honest, it scared me a little. 

Her eyes that were usually so full of warmth and happiness were now empty, no feeling or emotion anywhere in them.

“You asshole!”  She hissed.

Now I was confused, just before she had been fine and normal and okay with everything, what had happened?

“Izabell, what happened? I whispered.

Her eyes softened a bit but then turned icy when she spoke next,

“How could you?! How could you do that to me?” Her voice was strong yet her eyes were struggling to stay focussed.

Shit, I thought, she had obviously heard about my plans but how could she not tell me what she was doing either!?  Now thinking about this was making me angry at both of us.

“Well when were you planning on telling me about your little situation with Nellie Divine!”

I practically yelled back, she looked shocked that I knew about that, “Yeah, I found out!” I continued.

“My secret doesn’t involve killing the person you apparently ‘Love!” She yelled back using her fingers as quotation marks around the word love.

“I told you I didn’t want to kill you!” What mess have I made now.

“Was that before or after you decided it would be funnier to make me fall in love with you first? Huh!” By now her eyes were shining with tears that threatened to fall although the gun was still pointed at my heart.

Holy shit.  How could I explain my situation to her and make her understand?!

“I am so sorry Iz, I- I didn’t want to agree…from that first day three weeks ago at the soccer fields when I met you- I liked you.  I tried to keep away from you when I found out it was you that was my next target but- but I just couldn’t, the more time we spent together, the more I liked you.  Then that day in the closet when we spoke and you didn’t run away when I mentioned what my uncle and I did.  I fell for you…”

There was silence for what felt like forever, I stared at Izabell while she looked everywhere except me with an expression of deep thought.

I took a slow step forward so I walk only half an arm’s length away from Izabell, even though she was still pointing a gun towards me I knew she wouldn’t actually shoot me,  I noticed that when she smiles at me her whole face lights up and Alexander said he noticed that she gets that dazed, nervous, adoring look in her eyes when she looked at me- I didn’t know about that one but she definitely had strong feelings for me so she wouldn’t shoot me… Would she? No!

My thoughts were interrupted when finally Bells spoke in a shaky voice,

“Well, I guess you fucked up.  I can’t be with you nor can you be with me, I think you should stay away from me and I’ll stay away from you.  I don’t love you back Elliot, I can’t forgive you, we’re over…”

She finished with a sob while a single tear fell down that beautiful face of hers.

It took a couple seconds for what Bell said to sink in.  She didn’t love me.   At that moment it felt as if a dagger had been stabbed straight into my heart, ripped it down the middle and then let it shatter into a billion tiny pieces.  This is why I tried not to fall for anyone! The first girl I truly loved didn’t love me back.  She fucked me over, for the first time ever in my life I felt like I was going to cry but I will not!  It feels like a part of me just died.

Izabell POV

Telling Elliot I didn’t love him was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, I almost took it back and told him it was a lie and that i still loved him with everything I had because I could actually see his heart break when I took another look at his face.  It seemed as though the light that usually sparkled there in those dark blue eyes had gone out.

Oh my god, I thought to myself, I’ve killed Elliot’s soul!  But I had to do this, it was better for the both of us.  

But he made you so happy! Whispered a tiny voice inside my head, the way he looked at you with pure admiration, how he love to tease you just to make you smile- No. stop it. He had lied, he didn’t actually love me, it was all an act.  To think I had fallen for him, no I hadn’t just fallen for him; I did really fall in love with him.

“Bell.” Came Elliot’s quiet voice.

I looked to the side, I couldn’t look at him it would make me crumble, already just thinking about him made my knees weak.

I felt a hand touch my chin and gently, sending sparks though my body.  He tilted my head so I was staring into those beautiful eyes, on impulse I started to bring me face towards Elliots, our lips brushed.  I suddenly realised what I was doing,

“No.” I whispered weakly.

I pulled away and ran off into the darkness of the trees sobbing with tears pouring down my face.  How could he make me feel so weak.