Some Secrets Hurt.

chapter 15.

Ok so this is the last chapter... :)

We’d been at home now for an hour and I still hadn’t seen anyone, we were all just in our separate rooms cleaning ourselves up, I stitched my thigh and arm up and wrapped a bandage around my ribs.  Now here I am sitting on my bed wearing a sports bra and some black booty shorts, my hair’s in a messy bun at the top of my head and I can’t decide who to see first.   I should see Ryan…

I chucked on an oversized band shirt and wandered around the house to Ryan’s room, passing the front window I noticed it was pouring down rain, wow the weather changes fast.

I knocked on the door and heard a muffled answer; I took it as a yes to enter.

As I walked into Ryans room I noticed him sitting in the middle of his bed like i had been a few minutes ago, I padded over and sat next to him cross legged.  For a couple minutes we just sat there examining each other.

“You’re an idiot.” Ryan said breaking the long silence.

I looked down and fiddled with the hem of my shirt,

“I didn’t want you to get hurt, Ryan, I was protecting you from my mistakes, you may be my big brother but that doesn’t mean I have to rely on you for everything.” I mumbled quietly.

“Oh Izabell, I would help you any day, any time, even if it were a death wish… Like this little mission.”

I chuckled quietly and hugged him, I closed my eyes and breathed in his scent savouring this moment because honestly it didn’t happen a lot, I never hugged my brother… how sad is that.

With a sigh, I pulled away, “I should go see how…Elliot is going.”

I watched as Ryan shifted uncomfortably at the sound of Elliot’s name,

“Whaaat?” I asked cautiously.

“Well, Elliot’s not here…” he trailed off.

What? Where did he go? Is he ok? I felt my stomach drop at the thought that he wasn’t here but it wasn’t the same as the butterflies I got when I saw him.  I don’t know since when but I just didn’t feel the same way, maybe it was the fact he always ignored me now or maybe it was that we hadn’t hung out in weeks.

“Where is he?” I asked.

“Him and his uncle left town, Elliot told me to say goodbye to you for him and he’s sorry.  He also said he hopes to “catch up” in the future.” He replied putting quotation marks around the word ‘catch up.’

So Elliot had left.  Just then a thought hit me, what Tom had said before I went into Nellie’s room, “I love you.”

Those three words were bugging me, why must I always over think things?!  He would’ve meant as a best friend, I love him as a best friend, he always knew how to make me smile, he knew how to make me happy when I’m sad, we tell each other everything.

  He knew all my weaknesses and imperfections, why would he love me?

“Earth to Izabell!”

I was suddenly snapped out of my big thinking trance by Ryan clicking his fingers in front of my eyes.

“What?”

“Jeez, Iz you were so out with the faries just then, I’ve been saying your name for the past 5 minutes!”

“Sorry, I have to go.”

And with that, I got up and walked out of the room and down the hall- wait! I didn’t even know if Tom was here!