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Dan's Pov
The ride home was mostly silent, Phil broke out in tears every once in a while when he looked back at me, it killed me inside when his lip quivered and he tried to hide it from me.. he wasn't very good at it.
Luckily the stab wound wasn't deep at all, but I did loose alot of blood, hence why I fainted..
The wind creek hospital was the only ER around us, so it looks like im going to have to have nurse Phil until everything heals up better, I wont let him see anything though, I hate to see Phil cry. Also, these are life time scars, I would rather have him see the healed version other than this.
We arrive home and Phil cant even look at me as he carries me inside to my bed. I guess he figured I can beat up a few doctors and rip a few stitches but I can walk myself inside.
He was right though, im far to tired. My body is using all of my energy to heal, not to keep me awake.
Phil lays me down in my bed gently and I whisper a thank you, I start to study his face, he looks tired, hurt, and paler than usual, his blue eyes have turned grey and he looks so tired.
I feel so guilty, I know its my fault he's like this, I know its my fault he looks so ill.
Our eyes meet and we both break down in tears, Phil sits on my bed and burries his head in his hands. all while he is yelling at himself mostly .
What else could I have done Dan? Is it my fault ? Do you just not love me anymore?
He stops after that last part, and I know he wants a answer.
"Phil, of coarse I love you" I say hurt because he would even question it.
"Please dont blame yourself, its my fault.. I wasn't strong enough, I just didn't try hard enough to be happy, ill try harder for you Phil.. P-lease do.nt leave me."
"I could never leave you Dan, but I want you No, I need you to be happy again" Phils still crying but he continues.
Phil opens his mouth to say somthing else but he closes it and gets up off my bed.
"What Phil?"
"Nothing Dan, get some sleep" he says suddenly very cold towards me, it hurts him to even look at me, and I have to admit..
I hate looking at myself to.
AN/ SO editing this whole story is harder than I thought.. ha...
but im going to keep going because I want this to be written well and not rushed.
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Suicide Notes {Phan}
Fanfiction*MAJOR EDITING AND STORY CHANGES* IF A CHAPTER IS EDITED IT WILL SAY AT THE BEGINNING Dan has been hiding his dark past from Phil for a long, long time. When one night Dan tries to end it all, how will Phil react? When Phil can't st...
