All You Had To Do Was Stay // Tree of Love

Chapter 9

"What?!" Karen snapped at me. "For the first time in our life, you're being such a dumbass." she told me. I told her everything about yesterday. We're in the last period now.

"Please, I don't even know what to do. Both the answer is bad." I told her.

"Yeah I know, but that doesn't mean that you have to do this. Well, maybe he would act differently. But God knows what his friends will do if they knew about this." she told me, moving her hands in the air like a maniac.

Oh yes. I forgot about how threatening his friends are. Damn, why would I be such a dumbass? I mentally slapped my head.

"I know, but talking like that won't help me." I said to her.

"Quiet please." Ms McNeer sussed us. Both of us look back to the book again.

It's almost the end of the day. I don't know how time passed real fast. Maybe it is because I haven't seen any of them, and I kept thinking about the tutoring.

"When is it again?" she asked me. Her voice lower than before.

"Today, at 6." I remind her again. She sighed.

"You know, I don't know what to do." She answered.

"Neither do I." I told her. I have no idea what should I do instead teaching him math. Math is easy. But seeing him is not easy.

"But," she started, turned her head to me, "If he asked you for help, you can have a feedback." she told me.

"What?" I asked her, not sure about what she just said.

"He wanted you to teach him math, you can have what you want too." she told me.

"What do you mean by what I wanted too?"

"God, Shay. What I mean is that you can compromise each other. You'll tell him if he wanted to be tutored then him and any of his friends would take their hands off of you." she told me.

"Yeah! I could try that one." I told her meaning it. She nodded with a thumbs up and a wink.

What a brilliant idea. I should do that. If he can get what he wanted, then I could get what I wanted too. He used me, and I can use him too. But how am I supposed to say to him? It'll be hard.

"But I think it won't be as easy as we talking about right now." I told her.

"You mean you scared?" she asked me.

"Of course, I am. As much as I wanted to do that just like right now, I'd be pee in my pants if I talked right in front of him." I told her. Really, I knew that I'm not going to be as brave as I want right now when I see him. Karen didn't answer but she laughed.

"Ssshhh!" our teacher is telling us to shut up. She's now glaring to both of us. Well, mostly to Karen. We both look down again just like before.

"Seriously, Shay. If you never said it then you'll always be like this. And you'll never know if you never tried." She told me, whispering after a few seconds of silence.

Right. You'll never know if you never try. Maybe he'll agree, or maybe he won't and would kill me right after I said the words.

"You know all of this plan would have a really big possibility of me dead in the end." I told her, whispering.

"Yes. You don't have to be scared. I'll find your body and buried them if you die." she said to me, holding back her laugh.

"Damn. You're the first person that I'll be followed then." I told her and trying so hard not to laugh. But suddenly, Karen can't help it and laugh. I joined her with a snickered.