A friend of mine on here once told me “of course it hurts. Love hurts, but in a good way”.
Cici was right, all I was capable of feeling was pain for way too long, and when I allowed myself to fall in love the pain got worse, and Cici put it this way:
“You said fall in love. When you fall you’re bound to get hurt, doesn’t matter how much you hurt, could be like a skinned knee that heals in a few days and it could be fatal, like falling off a cliff. Depends on how hard you fall for someone.”
What I hadn’t realized was that I fell harder than I ever imagined I could for someone I, now, proudly call my fiancé. But our journey wasn’t easy at all. It was filled with emotional scars and pain on a deeper level that it felt as strongly as any physical pain would.
Imagine the worst physical pain you could ever experience but because it rages deep in your heart and boils under your skin there’s no anesthetic in this whole world that could make it stop. Nothing at all, except for the touch of that one special person that you’d lay down your whole life for. One person out of a possible zillion of people? What are your odds of getting it right then? Zero to one? Or the opposite I’m not so sure…
That special someone came to me in the most unexpected ways.
He’d been right there in front of me ever since I was a child, but because he was about 3 and a half years older he chose my brother as his best friend and I had my sister anyway , who’s 8 years my senior and I looked up to her. I was like her shadow if she did anything I had to do the same, it was like my whole life depended on it.
But one day she picked up her bags and left and things were never the same again.
If I had a fuse in my brain keeping my rational it blew!
I was almost 13 at the time and already depressed and I had fits and craziness written all over my face. A year later I was diagnosed by Bipolar disorder due to a heavy shock. Or so they said…
My name’s Macy, I’m almost 18 years old now and I’m going to tell you my entire story, not just with how I fell in love, but also my journey with my family, my gorgeous siblings, my friends and my battle with psychological issues.
It all starts with this quote:
“ I want to stand as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can’t see from the center” -KV
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Hurt Me Twice
RomanceMacy Clark had been through a lot of pain in her life, though surrounded by so much love no one came close to healing her... Until she met Nathan Carter. He gets caught up in the details of her life and puts up with all the pain she's going through...
