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The Change

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The last thing I remembered saying was, "Get It Out!!!" Then, everything went black.

I couldn't say anything, couldn't hear, see, or move. There was no more chaos. It was... peaceful. I could no longer feel the injuries I'd been secretly hiding for the past months. I had been in so much pain I didn't bother to tell anyone about it because in the end, I knew all this pain would be all worth it.

I was sure I was dead. I'd so willingly let the black take over me. It was overwhelming. My body was just exhausted, I was exhausted.I'd been in this state before. I guess I could say I was a magnet for trouble. I've came so close to death many times. I laid here unconcious for what seemed like forever, waiting on my fait to come. A sudden pain came from my wrist. Fire.

My fingers and toes were burning. The pain worked its way from my hands and feet to my arms and legs. The pain was working its way through me until my whole body was engulfed in the flames. This must be Hell, but why? This pain couldn't compare to anything anybody would imagine. The pain coursed through me for minutes, hours, even days! I realized what was happening to me. I wasnt dead, well, not all the way. I could hear now. Perfectly clear. I could hear everything.

There were sounds coming from downstairs. Television? Yup, the cooking channel, but why would the people downstairs be watching that? I was quite sure that the house I was in didn't contain any humans. They were vampires. And I was becoming one of them. They were talkin in hushed whispers, probably because of me. It all came back to me... Why I was here, lying here burning. My little nudger. where was he? Or she? I couldn't worry about that now because the pain was unbearable. Though, it was no longer in my arms or legs, it seemed all the pain that was in my body was now all focused on my heart. Poor thing. It was racing extremely fast. When was this pain goin to END?! My heart was beating so fast and loud I'm sure the others could here it. But then I was aware of another heart beating, not a fast as mine though. Could that be... - My thinking was cut off by the burning once again. It was all in my heart and THIS was even worse than the burning I'd been feeling earlier. This pain in my heart intensified, doubled, and even tripled. And then... it stopped.

I layed there for a little while just to make sure the pain was really gone. After laying there for about 0.36 miliseconds, I opened my eyes. I gasped. I could not only hear perfectly, but I could also see perfectly. Man, it made me feel like I was actually blind when I was human compared to my new sight.

I sat up from the bed I was on. I was in the bedroom I'd been staying in since I came to live with the Denali's. I quickly jumped off the bed, it was so fast yet graceful! I think I would learn to love this life. Me....Graceful? Who would've heard of it. I scanned the room, I was the only one in it. The window was opened though. It had a great view of the forest, which I'm sure was full of wildlife. Come to think of it... my throat WAS burning, not like how it had been earlier but like I was...Thirsty. I hopped out the window to go...eat. I love the new me. I loved running, I loved leaping, and I most importantly love it when I sparkle in the sunlight.

After I drank about 4 mountain lions I was full and decided to go back home. When I hopped back into the open window leading into my room this time I was not alone. When I hopped back in, I heard gasps from 5 different people. They were all in my room; Kate, Tanya, Carmen, Eleazar, even Irina. It was silent. And then I heard that same distinct heartbeat I heard while I was "transforming". I got into a defensive crouch. I scanned the room for danger but the I noticed that everyone was looking at me with shock on their face. I realized that the danger, was me!

I quickly straightened up out of my crouch. I smiled at there faces for reassurance. They smiled back at me. The silence was broken by Eleazar," Hi Bella, I'm glad to see that you've gotten used to your...new self." He said kindly. I was about to speak when Carmen cut me off," We watched you hunt and I must say that you've got great behavior. It's like you were made to be a vampire. You didn't even go after the group of teenagers hiking about a mile away." Oh I smelled them but, their blood just didn't stand out to me. I guess because I never wanted to kill humans. "I wasn't intrested" I said. More like sang. They all had surprised looks on their faces. I'm guessing they were surprised to hear that I didn't want to suck the life out of the humans, but I was surprised to hear my voice. It was so...beautiful.

Kate spoke up,"You've got wonderful self control, I've never seen anything like it, perhaps since you can control yourself you can see Little Bella." "I'm sorry, who?", I interrupted her.

"Oh, you never named your child, it was a girl, so we decided to just call her Little Bella until you decided on a name." As she spoke a little baby girl peeked her head from under Tanya's hair. She was amazing.beautiful,precious,gorgeous all of that times 2. And you could definetly tell that she was my baby because she was a spitting image of me. Her cheeks,her curly,brown hair,her lips. But to my dismay you could also tell she was His! She had his nose and her eyes were a mix of his eyes and mine, they were Hazel. Beautiful.

I slowly approached the baby, my baby. She was reaching out to me, obviously impatient at how slow I was walking. I closed the gap between us then in that instant she was in my arms and I knew how it felt to be a mother. My motherly instincts kicked in. And even though her heart beats and pumps blood, I couldn't dare ever possibly want to feed off of her. She clinged onto me and it seemed like we were meant to be together. I kissed her little cheeks and she kissed me back. She pecked her little lips onto mine and it came to me. This is my little mini me. " I will name her Arabella." What will be her middle name? I've got to name her after the people that helped me...the Denali's! " Arabella Denialle..." They noticed I didn't have a last name for her. " I don't know what her last name is, I mean legally I'm a...Cullen" I said that name with disgust," But I think she should take my surname, Swan. I will to." I looked at Tanya I knew she still had feelings for Edward," Yeah, I totally agree!" she added.

Then it is settled," We are Isabella and Arabella Swan!''

My baby Bella looked up at me and smiled. I knew we'd be OK. We will be the perfect little family, just me and her. Someday I'll tell her about her father,she deserves that much, but as far as her meeting him,well we'll just wait and see about that.

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