Loved, Left, Lost, and Loved Again

I'm so sorry (Edwards point of view)

I laid there next to her in the bed. I watched her sleep. She looked so peaceful when ever she sleeps, sometimes she talks in her sleep. Thats the most i can ever get since I cant hear her thoughts. I can only imagine what she's dreaming of right now. She probably hates me. Looking over her i can see all the bruises and contortions I put on her. I even came close to biting her! Luckily there was pillow next to her... Last night was the best moment of my life, well, existence. That was too dangerous. This is too dangerous. I put her in so much danger. I'm such an idiot.

 I got out of the bed ever so lightly, not to wake her up. I grabbed some clothes not sure what my next move would be. I ran out the door, going in to the kitchen. It was so empty. How could I forget? Bella...she needs food! I ran to the nearest market and shopped around thinking about how I would confront Bella about the dangers I put her through. I picked up some of Bella's favorite foods. I checked out and ran back to the little cottage we were staying in.

When I got back,  she was still sleeping. I quickly placed the food in the refrigerator and in the pantry. In my time at the market I thought about what I should do. I have to leave,we can't be together, that's final. I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote a letter to her telling her that I had gone out hunting. She should be OK for the time being. I placed the note on the bed where I had been laying.

I know I'm breaking her heart but it is better than me coming close to killing her. I will never ever again place her harms way again. I love her so much. I don't know how I'm leaving her right now. But I know that it's the best thing for her...us. I will always love her and I hope she knows that. I just wish she finds it in her heart to ever forgive me. I kissed her on the forehead. And with that, I walked out the door of the cottage...of her life. If I could cry, I would.

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