Darkness Inside Me »Vkook» [Completed]

can't stop...

⚠Warning⚠

Please stop reading here if you don't feel comfortable with self-harm or blood!!!

(Author's p. o. v)

Taehyung made his way out of the hospital and walked down the street, his house wasn't far from the hospital and he arrived it within 15 minutes, he quickly slipped off his shoes as he got inside and rushed upstairs into his bedroom, he ran over to his bed and reached underneath his pillow, pulling out a silver object and ran into the bathroom, locking himself in even though he lived alone.

(Taehyung's p. o. v)

I locked himself in my bathroom, holding the little sliver blade with some old dried blood on it
in my hands.

I can't take it anymore. I have to cut. I feel empty. Dead. I need to feel something that tells me that I'm still living. My thought been bothering me even more ever since I've been in the hospital. I didn't had anything to cut there and it was killing me since I'm addicted to it. People get addicted to things to get the pain away even if it's for a few seconds or minutes.

I sat down onto the toilet, pulling my shirt off of me to be able to cut better, I looked down at my body in disgust.

Just look at all this fat. The old and new scars. Why can't I be good looking like the other kids in my school? Why must it be me who's so ugly and doesn't have a perfect body? Why me..

Even though you could see my bones clearly I still felt fat and that's how I saw myself whenever I looked into the mirror. Who would even want to love such a ugly face like mine? All these ugly scares all over me yet I replace them everyday with new one.

I can't stop it..

I couldn't wait any longer and immediately brought the blade up to my right arm,
I placed the blade on my wrist, titling it a bit and then finally after so long I made a long deep cut into my wrist,
it took a few seconds till a lot of blood escaped out of the wound, running down to my hand and fingers. I slightly giggled as I saw my blood going down to my hand and dripping onto the floor.

I love how it feels like when my blood escapes my cuts, it makes me calm and for a short moment I feel no pain, the pain in numbed.

I placed the blade back to my wrist, cutting deeply underneath the fresh cut I just did.

The first cut was followed by the second one...

The second one with the third...

The third cut was followed by the fourth...

then the fifth one came...

then the sixed...

seventh.....

eighth...

ninth...

and so on....

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Soon there was a huge puddle of blood on the floor...

After I was done I fell down to the ground, crying hardly because of what I've done again.. Am I ever going to be able to stop with cutting..?

I felt so weak... probably from the loss of blood from what I've been doing... the bleeding didn't stop.. I had cuts all over my arms.. legs and even stomach since there wasn't any room on my arms and legs.. everything stings.. I don't understand why it stings.. it never did...

I feel dizzy...

Everything around me is spinning....

I might t---....

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I couldn't even finish my though as I fell down to the floor, my face hitting something wet,
my clothes, drowning in my own blood...

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