Dear Min Yoongi

The Main Character

Dear Min Yoongi,

You are not a side character. One of the unfortunate things about being a fan is how much you don't know. I really don't know if I can rely on other sources as much as I usually do, but the thought of you calling yourself a side character, that you don't even think of yourself as a main character, bothers me. I think, "Don't drag yourself to my level". All of Bangtan has their own book, their own story. They are pages and pages long, and maybe you think length is boring, but I love how deep you get, Min Yoongi. Your story is not one for the faint-hearted, and it's not for those who think life is full of sunshine and roses.

You have worked hard, all harsh angles and pushing through. Those pages were written with blood, sweat, tears; and you had no problem with that. You saw achievement in each paper cut, in each wound, in each turmoil. You are a character that is not easy to understand. You are subtle and sharp and then all at once brutal and all-consuming. I love the way you write and speak. I know you are different. I know you are a main character.

I was listening to the comeback trailer Never Mind. To be honest, I hadn't really paid it as much attention as the rest of the songs. But your music is a whole other form entirely. I can hear the anger, the triumph in your voice. The confidence, the refusal, the sheer will building in your vocals. It gives me the chills, reading the lyrics and listening to you. I've seen your heart with the music you write, and I still see red every time you rap. It burns me and soothes me, and I can't get over how your soul was made from flames. Your soul has life written all over it.

I don't understand how such an obvious passion goes unseen by you. How can you miss the fire in your eyes the whole world would love to snuff out? It's been there from day one. The absolute refusal to bow and the anger always ready to burst, because sometimes the past can haunt you more than you want. I'm reminded of a lyric from Hip-Hop Lover. "Hip-hop, it carries the scent of humans". Maybe it does. Maybe that's why I like you so much. You are not scared to show the anger, the weakness, the fear. All of it makes you that much more intimidating. All of it makes you defy any definition I had of a rapper.

But right now, whenever I hear you rap, you are not a rapper to me. You are not an idol. You are Min Yoongi. And you can carry the world in your voice.

I don't care what anyone says.

I don't even care what you say.

To me, you have always been a main character. You always will be.

Write more pages, Min Yoongi. Because even though an author can never see who their readers are, there is a girl with brown eyes and a knack for low self-esteem that finds confidence and strength in the words you write. There is a girl who loves you enough to trust those pages. There is a girl who believes in the character that Min Yoongi is.

-Just an ARMY