Dear Min Yoongi

My Inspiration Resembles A Stripper's Name

Dear Min Yoongi,

I hope you've been well. Ah, I haven't been able to keep up with what you guys are doing lately. It's hard for an international fan; we usually have to hunt on Instagram or Twitter just to see if something new popped up. Lately, I've been watching Bangtan Bombs to cheer me up though. No matter how much I think about it, music is the only thing that can really de-stress me in college.

Anyway, I have something to ask you. I know you think Jimin's voice is sweet, but don't you think Jungkook and V's are just as pure and clear? I can't get over Jungkook's cover of Sofa and V's Hug Me with J-Hope. Those songs send chills down my spine. I, like many other fans, am definitely waiting for Jimin to release a solo cover of some sort; honestly, he's keeping us all in suspense and frustration, ha-ha.

I guess you and Jimin both have that in common. I'm still waiting on your mixtape, Min Yoongi. Be prepared if you delay it too long. I might just fly to Korea and force you to let me listen to it (dreams of a fangirl who actually has no confidence in those statements). Regardless, thank you for working hard. I'm sure you're polishing the diamond you have ready to give to us. Ah, now that I think of it, a diamond is a suitable description for what your music is. Polished and poised; clear, unadulterated facets of you; your words summed into the sharpness of the cuts in the diamond, cutting deeply into anyone that comes to close. The image of it will sparkle in our eyes for days and leave desperate scars on our greedy skin. And once light hits just one of those facets you have ready for us, a whole array of wild colors will wrap around us, your humanity painted in each shade.

You're a diamond, Min Yoongi. Can that be your nickname from now on? Pffft. Actually, that might be weird. I wouldn't want anyone mistaking you for a stripper. Although you already have the leather pants-

Well, I'll leave that thought to run its course. I don't want to get on your bad side. I've seen for myself what happens when someone just tries to wake you up; imagine if I added insult to injury. You're actually quite scary, Yoongi. Yah, you should really fix that. Be more sociable. Like a little more approachable than a stone gargoyle, please. Ha-ha. I keep saying all these things, but I don't think I'd have the courage to say them to you face to face. I'd be too overwhelmed with just seeing you; aren't I pathetic? I used to think my friend was so pathetic for loving a band so much when she didn't even know them personally, wasting her money on merchandise and posters, constantly praising them over and over. What a fool I was. I'm worse than her.

Because now I want to see you in person. I want to see you smile. I want to be closer to the boys I've grown to love so much. It's bigger than the idea of a crush or some sort of infatuation, because the music connects idols and fans on a whole other level. We actually learn some valuable qualities, patiently waiting for whatever you have to offer, giving unconditional love because everything you are is perfect to us, spending money for what and who we love. You provide inspiration and self-revelation. Can normal relationships do that nowadays? I feel like the standards of relationships have gone down. No one knows how to love anymore. And maybe being a fan might be the best way to learn how to love someone without judgement or without hesitation. We learn to be fearless for you.

I feel happy when I hear anything to do with Bangtan. I'm sure girls or guys have had those feelings with music they connect to and people who give them the type of music they need. It's hard to explain. If you're not a fan yourself, then you wouldn't know what I mean. But I'm sure you're a fan of someone, Yoongi. I'm not sure who specifically, but I'm sure you understand how far our love for you reaches. It's not shallow, not from the true fans. It's not fleeting or ephemeral. It's the type you can't forget and even if you wanted to,  BTS is like a thug dragging you down an alleyway while you're trying to just live life normally, like attending school. You can picture it, right? 

Ha-ha, it's funny because it's actually very accurate. Yah, I blame you, Min Yoongi. I haven't been able to sleep at normal hours because of the V app; as hyung, you should definitely tell your dongsaengs to let their international fans sleep. Instead of bombing us with their cuteness at the ungodly hours of the night. I bet you taught them a couple of those skills, right? (Stupid baby gummy smiles)

Cheongmal, you really make me suffer. But this is fine too. I get to keep these photos of you being adorable whenever I need a boost to my day, kamsamnida~

As always,

-Just an ARMY