Lonely Together II (Sequel)

Chapter 31

Dear Justin,

I can't believe you'll be in New York in two days. You're finally getting to do what you love, and I never really got to tell you how happy I am for you. I know it seems like I don't care, but I do. I always will.

I didn't want things to end the way they did and then have you leave, because that's not how I want you to remember me. You know me better than anyone, and you know that that's not who I am.

I never got a chance to tell you this, but I'm officially pursuing fashion. You always encouraged me to, and I finally am. You were the only person who ever told me to do what I loved, and I thank you for that.

And hey, if you're ever by the Máralís company that's in Manhattan, be sure to send me a picture. I'd love to see it.

I hope your apartment and job is everything you've ever dreamed of. You deserve it. And even though it may not be soon, I'd love to come visit sometime.

I guess this is it. I don't want us to hate each other because we're not together, and I hope you feel the same. I wrote this letter to remind you that I'll always care about you, no matter where you are or what you do.

And please, no matter how busy you get, who you meet, or whatever you face in life,

Don't forget me.
____________________________________

I did a double take before I put the letter in Justin's mailbox, unsure if I really wanted him to see this.

Without a second thought, I shoved the letter into his mailbox and walked away before I changed my mind.

It was crazy to think that just yesterday I was scared to even see him, but since I have, I felt as if that was our closure, and maybe that was all I needed.

The shop didn't really feel like mine anymore. I mean, it was, but I didn't get to do the fun things like I used to. All I got to do was sit behind a desk and pay bills, which wasn't what it used to be. It used to be my favorite place in the world, but now I'm not so sure.

The girls have all been really supportive. Supportive of the shop, I mean. They all seem to be enthusiastic about their job, and if I have to be the one to do all the dirty work so they're happy, then so be it. Positive energy at the shop was all I could ever ask for, and now, they finally have it.

I got a call from the head police station of Pennsylvania early this morning to inform me hat my mothers body was found. Hearing this news took me to a dark place; one that I couldn't seem to come out of. The call took place at 3:24 this morning, because they told me they'd inform me right away, and they finally did.

It was hard to try and hold back the weeps that were escaping my mouth when they called. They said her body was found in an abandoned field about 40 miles outside of Philadelphia, and there was a gun laying next to her head. It looked like a suicide, but they found Brad's fingerprints all over the gun. It made me want kill Brad myself.

I was weak. I felt like I was going to die from the lack of oxygen I was receiving after hanging up the phone; but that's not what my mom would've wanted. She would've wanted me to be strong, and live to my life to its full potential. 'Sharon' would always be a part of me, and she would always be there. I finally got the closure that I needed.

Today was a bit of weird one for me in general, also because I felt like my old self. I actually went for a jog on the beach, and got all my laundry done before noon. It was crazy how fast my life fell into place once Justin wasn't apart of it anymore.