5 year challenge

CH 8 I'll love you long after your gone gone gone

I woke up the next morning. I had a ton of things rushing through my head. I was up kind of early so I decided I would make Alec a nice breakfast with bacon and eggs and hashbrowns and it just seemed like a good thing to do and seeing how was probably going to tell him that Damain and I went to lunch and were talking about going to dinner later in the week.

"Something smells good. Whats for breakfast" He walked in and saw the spread I had created, full with fruit and toast and orange juice. "Who died?"

"no one died.. well none that I can think of. I just wanted to make me breakfast" I turned away from the stove with two plates one for me one for Alec. "Sit. eat. enjoy" ALec eyed me suspiciously, Causiously he sat down in the chair across from me and just watched me, and watched the food. His eyes kept traveling between me and the food.

"your hiding something."

"I don't know what your talking about" I just looked down at me eggs. I knew if I looked up he would know I was lying. I could feel his eyes staring into the top of my head. I caved. I looked up and my eyes met Alec.

"your lying!" I just looked at Alec nervously. "What did you do?"

"umm sooo you know when I dropped you off??"

He didd't say anything. Just watching me hesitantly.

"well I went to go Coulon and sat on the beach and I decided to call Damian. And him and I went and got lunch together and we talked and we decided after you went to bed last night that he would take me on a date friday night" I just looked at Alec waiting for a reaction and I was getting nothing.

We just looke at each other. The more I looked at Alec the more pissed he looked. I knew he was going to blow up any second and I was scared.

"ARE YOU KINDING ME?! DID YOU LEARN NOTHING FROM LAST TIME" He was standing up this time. "THAT BASTARD HAS FUCKED YOU UP TIME AND TIME AGAIN. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GET UP AND MOVE ON. I WOULD RATHER YOU BE WITH PETER AGAIN THAN WITH DAMIAN! HE IS JUST GONNA HURT YOU FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME." he was more pissed than I had ever seen him. We almost never fought and when I saw it, it was scary. "i'll call Ross and get a ride to practice."

Alec walked out of the kitchen and just left me sitting at the table emotional. Before I knew it tears were streaming down my face. I just brought my head to my hands. I hate fighting with Alec, I hate seeing him angry. When he's mad he goes MIA for a day and I kinda get left on my own for a day. Its a little scary, but everytime it happens he comes back apologizing even when he is mad at something from work or his family. He just feels guilty for taking his anger out on me.

I looked down at my phone and saw I had 3 new messages. All of them being from Damian. I did not feel the urge to talk to him. Alec had left 15 minutes earlier.  I still hadn't moved from the kitchen table. My tears had finally subsided and I just continued to look at the empty seat accross from me. I hate being away from Alec when he is mad.

i heard another beep from my phone. It wasn't the same as the one before, it was a different one, It was Alec's. I could not grab my phone fast enough.

New Text from

ALEC :)

I Love You! can we talk

tonight???

Sent Message to

ALEC :) :

Yes please. I will make

Dinner

It was just nice to hear from him and know that he wanted to talk.

I needed  to get my mind off of things. I went back into my room and changed into some running shorts and a t shirt. I threw my hair up into a pony tail and found my shoes and grabbed my keys and headed for the door. I heard my phone beep one more time. I ignored it I needed to get away from technology and society. I got outside and I started running down to the water. Maybe I would find a new little hide away. Everytime I was stress or emotional I would get in my car and just drive, but today it felt like a run.

I started running and it felt so good. Be out in the fresh air. I began thinking about the Damian situation. I knew Alec didn't like hiim due to the way he treated me in high school. We were neer official and we had times admitting our feelings but I would on occation open up about my feelings but when I tried to get him to open up it ended in a fight and I always ended up crying to Alec and he always hated seeing my cry and see me that much destroyed. Should I go on the date with Damian or should I bail? I didn't know what to do. but I knew I should probably stop standing him up and answer the phone.

After about 30 minutes of running I decided to head back home. I Immediately showered and changed and started making something for dinner. I decided on steak with sauteed mushrooms and a bagged salad. Alec would be home in about 10 minutes so I decided to get changed really quick.

I let my hair out of the pony tail and ran a straightner through it., I put on a pair of black yoga pants and a blue low cut v neck with a squin accents. I went back into my bathroom quickly applied some mascara. I ran back into the kitchen and put the steak in the fridge and began sauteeing the mushrooms.

I heard the door open but i was to much into cooking to say anything. A few moments later I felt Alec's arms wrap around me and he burried his head in the top of my head. "I Love you Rawlins and I am so sorry for the way I acted this morning. I shouldn't have went off on you like that I just hated seeing how much he hurt you."

I turned around and wrapped my arms around his torso and burried my head in his chest. "I love you too, we will talk about this over dinner. can  you make the salad?" I looked at him and smiled and he kissed the top of my head and turned and started mixing up the salad.

5 minutes later we were around the table eating dinner. It was silent for a little while until Alec broke the silence "Sooo I am really sorry for the way i treated you this morning. I shouldn't have went off on you like that."

"I love you but you can't protect me all the time. I need to learn. We will see what happens with this and if he hurts me I promise you can kick his ass ok?"

Alec nodded and patted his lap. I went over and sat on his lap and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Please just let me learn from my mistakes" i leaned my head on his shoulder. "I should probably text Damian and let him know I am still alive. i have kind of been ignoring him all day."

"Nice Job" he slapped my ass as I got up "You make me proud"

"You got clean up duty!".

I walked out of the kitchen and grabbed my phone and sent a text to Damian

Sent text to

Damain:

Sorry I have been MIA. Alot

going on. Still on for friday

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