One Last Kiss {Book Three}

Chapter 9

"Kat, I told you," I slumped back in the couch, clutching one of my fuzzy blue pillows in my arms. "I don't wanna go anywhere. Brendon is coming home tomorrow night and I'd rather just stay home until then."

I brought my knees to my chest and leaned back into the sofa, holding the pillow closer. The thought of leaving this spot worried me. I didn't wanna make a wrong move and end up hurting myself. I've been thinking about things lately. By that I mean all of last night. There was no sleep to be had, as I wouldn't let myself drift off. Maybe this decision to raise a tiny person wasn't the greatest idea? What if I'm not ready? What if it grows up to be a terrible human being? All these different questions haunted my mind for the past 24 hours.

"You've been cooped up in here with only your dogs as company." She gave me a sigh as I continued to pet Bogart, who just so happened to fall asleep in my lap. Dogs were so much easier to take care of. And what's so wrong with staying home? There was nothing better to do anyways. "Please, Hannah. I don't want you stressing so much. You could loose the baby."

"So what then?!" My voice was raised and slightly cracked as I fought back tears. "What if I didn't even want a human growing inside of me?" I heard a slight rip in the pillow as I was clutching and pulling at it so much.

"Han, don't say that!" She sat next to me, placing a hand on my upper back, rubbing small circles. "This was all you and Brendon talked about when you got back from your honeymoon. You do want this. Admit it, it would be amazing to see a tiny Brendon walking around." She gave me a small smile. And I couldn't help but to smile back. That would be pretty damn cute. But I'm just...scared.

Maybe I was stressing too much. Being home without him is really pushing me to my worst. At this point, I may loose this tiny being if I stayed home.

"Where are we going?" I sigh in defeat. Bogart began to stretch out his legs across my lap before hopping off to walk over to where Penny was laying. The Boston Terrier picked up her head as he lay next to her.

"That is a secret." A wide smile formed onto her lips. "Let's just say that it's gonna be fun." Kat then grabbed my arm and pulled my off of the couch. I let out a groan as she pulled me to the stairs. "You need to change into something other than sweatpants and Brendon's old hoodie."

I looked down at my appearance and I honestly didn't understand why it mattered. The question was, was she taking me somewhere that involved a lot of effort to get ready? Because I was not up for that kind of process.

But then again, after two months of sitting at home trying to find another band to do an album cover for, I haven't exactly left the house. So maybe it'd be good to get all dolled up for a night.

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After a long hot shower and about an hour arguing with Kat over what to wear, we were finally ready for whatever this thing was. We settled on one of my oversized red and black short sleeved flannel looking shirts, and a pair of bleached blue skinny jeans which I honestly didn't even know I had anymore, and they barely fit. I was such a skinny human back when I wore these literally everywhere, and even though I'm still on the skinnier side, I'm definitely not as unhealthy as I used to be. So getting into these stupid things were a struggle. That and I was starting to show I bit, so that was part of the reason.

"We gotta go before it starts!" Kat was practically pushing me out of the door.

"Alright, alright!" I let out a chuckle as I was still in the process of tying my converse. Fuck it, I'll do it in the car.

I had Kat go in front of my as we sprinted to her beat up 2010 Honda of a car. Let's just say she took this thing everywhere. She's a part time model for an agency I forgot the name of, but sometimes she gets calls from all over California and sometimes even in Florida or New York. And she's terrified of flying, so when she doesn't need to go far, she goes on her own little road trip sometimes.